Hope

Hope

Tuesday, August 15, 2023

UPDATE - Scan results and pics...(not what I hoped for but I'll take it)

So, we dropped Karley off at Georgia Southern and then I came to Atlanta for scans.  I know I haven't posted in a while, but I'm still here.  I promise to let you all know if I start going downhill.  Nothing worse than reading a lung cancer friend died and you didn't get to say goodbye.

My friend Jessie and I hung out Sunday.  It was super fun.  However, her medication has begun effecting her heart.  Therefore, she's decided to discontinue it at this time.  December will be 8 years of living with lung cancer for her.

I had all of my scans yesterday in hopes that we could spread them out because copays are killing me.  The good news is, there is no knew cancer.  It is still stable and not causing any issues.

The bad news is, I've had another stroke, further damaging my brain.  It happened in the occiputal lobe I believe from the results. It's a distinct FLAIR so my oncologist is getting with my neuro-oncologist on how to proceed.  For now, I'm still on blood thinners and am starting a baby asprin in the mornings.

I have noticed that not only is my memory declining, but it's becoming harder for me to think of words or even spell them.  (so no jokes peeps!). And sometimes I feel like my eyes are crossing.  I'm following up again in 3 months.

I feel very blessed that I'm still here and got to help Karley move in to college.  I got to watch her graduate.  These are milestones that were virtually impossible in 2012.  And some of my closest friends didn't get to experience these.  I know God isn't done with me yet.

Please don't take this as a discouraging post.  It's far from it.  It's been almost 11 years!  And I've had a very good life and don't plan on going anywhere.  But if I do, my friends and family (especially my girl Karley) better remember how much I love them and no tears.  None of us are guaranteed tomorrow.  

You know I love to throw in pics of milestones and my girl and things we do.  

I did lose my best friend, Amanda.  I can't remember what happened, but I know she doesn't want to talk to me anymore.  I'be been worried about her.  I think I worried too much..  We were going to live together after our kids went to college. Because I can't afford to live without a roommate with disability.  So, within a year my entire life plan changed.  I really don't have a plan at the moment.  It's just hard thinking about everything and everyone I've lost over the past few years.

But here are some milestone and fun day pics.  Enjoy and I'll keep you all updated. Oh yeah, we moved out of our house after 8 years.  It was sad.  So many great memories. It's so crazy.  Where do I go from here? (besides more doctors 😞)



Like no more strokes?




My Heart

Jessie


These things terrify me

Had to get a selfie

Too fast - I remember signing her up for school here

The "moms" - our kids have been friends since Kindergarten

Graduation was freezing rain

Last mother daughter day before college- Barbie-I cried

Yes..She did that to her coach while walking at graduation. lol


Family Photo



Oglethorpe Point Elementary Class of 2023

Moms and daughters in that order -we go WAY back

Graduation and Jennifer Goare made it!

The dynamic duo

Georgia Southern Bound Pirates


Best friends and Varsity Volleyball stars

Class of 2023





One of my favorite senior pics

Counselor in training - Camp Connect

Got to see my lil sis and nieces after 2 years!



Karley's Dorms

GA Southern move-in day

My favorite pic of these two Besties

Love these girls