tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75132890840500786592024-03-25T02:09:59.416-04:00Keeping my Faith - Living with Stage IV Lung Cancer
After being diagnosed with Stage IV Non-Small Cell Lung Cancer over Thanksgiving 2012, I've decided to document my journey for my friends, family, and most of all, my sweet angel Karley.
Matthew 19:26 But Jesus looked at them and said, โWith man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.โKeeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.comBlogger236125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-59763013509285637372024-02-26T11:44:00.000-05:002024-02-26T11:44:19.048-05:00Living Beyond<p> Since I moved to Jacksonville, I've been working on my bookkeeping certification and getting my notary public. Florida laws are so much different than Georgia. </p><p>So, everyone tells me I'm a miracle and should be happy to be alive. I am happy, but no one understands the financial burden that it entails. I've downgraded housing expenses. So yay for that! I've picked up small bookkeeping jobs here and there, but I can't seem to get out of debt.</p><p>My dad and friends used to throw me fundraisers. The last one was 2018. He sadly passed away in 2021. I can't even write a out it without getting emotional.</p><p>Anyway, I somehow acquired a slap tear in my shoulder. So, now I've added another profession and set of imaging too my ever growing list of expenses. My orthopedic surgeon ordered ultrasound guided shots for the pain. It doesn't work 100%, but I've got moderate disc degeneration throughout c4-c7 (i think, without the paper in front of me). </p><p>That has led me to a spine clinic. So, once more, another profession and set of imaging required.</p><p>I'm still paying on the stroke I had in 2020. So now, along with my regular 3 month cancer scans, I've added on two more doctors. </p><p>Social Security disability pays $2,000 a month. I can't even pay rent with that. I know so many of you have helped before, and I hate to ask for help again. Right now my credit card debt is almost maxed out b/c of copays. I've applied for assistance but was rejected for making too much money. HOW???</p><p>All I do is stress about money now, to the point I can't even enjoy life. I can't plan for a future because I'm in so much debt. I started a GoFundMe for myself, which is super lame. But I need help. I can't pay for the doctors, scans, meds, utilities, rent, car, insurance, etc. If I pay my credit cards down, I'll be able to pay for my care. But lately, I've been very discouraged. I'm worth more dead than alive. </p><p>So, if any of you reading this can spare anything, I would be eternally grateful. I am, without a doubt, so very blessed I've been going 11 years. But I've had 5 strokes and we still don't know why. I know the stress of being a step away from nothingness is part of it. </p><p>I just wanted to let you all know, by the Grace of God, I'm still here. I'm getting tired a lot more lately and sleeping a lot more. I know a lot is stress, but I can barely even write this. I'm so tired.....</p><p>Please help me continue to live and not have the added financial burden that is drowning me. If you can't donate, please pray for me and share the fundraiser. </p><p>I just want you all to know, I'm not giving up. I have faith that God will make a way for me to continue going. My work here isn't finished. God bless you all, and once again, I'm so sorry to ask and can even do something for you if you need. Just ask.</p><p>I can do all things through Christ. We just found a new church to attend here in Jacksonville. It's about the only time I get dressed up. lol. Here are some pics.</p><p>And as for my sweet daughter, she made the volleyball club team at GA Southern. She loves it and is having so much fun I rarely see her or talk to her. But that's ok, she's surrounded herself with really good friends who go to church with her. She will be a counselor this summer at Camp Connect on St. Simons so google and sign up if you want your little ones there.</p><p>This cancer saved us both. We talked about it and want to both be baptized again. I could not be more proud as a mother. She has dedicated her life to Christ. </p><p>Anyway, the site is on this link below. Any amount helps. And please share. Of course I need to add some recent pics!</p><p><br /></p><p style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://gofund.me/142847e4" target="_blank"><span style="color: red; font-size: large;">GofundMe-Sam</span></a></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7PScSkunKgK9DT1wAgY-A69mzHrALVCb0J-AGOv5H4n77UvBapi7QGu3ghITEbK-pPgYd7OUkDkA0sFDr8H0uaAg_AIzWu3tu9iD6Lvx1zwlF3_gOMeBNGe0jH-9NKdMn5WrSBFtMmhW2SULpc80nT-mccH3MjS7gPblqcDQho37i9IVyTQ2_zsfYSN2Z/s4032/IMG_0493.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7PScSkunKgK9DT1wAgY-A69mzHrALVCb0J-AGOv5H4n77UvBapi7QGu3ghITEbK-pPgYd7OUkDkA0sFDr8H0uaAg_AIzWu3tu9iD6Lvx1zwlF3_gOMeBNGe0jH-9NKdMn5WrSBFtMmhW2SULpc80nT-mccH3MjS7gPblqcDQho37i9IVyTQ2_zsfYSN2Z/s320/IMG_0493.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">On the way to Church, love this view</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibSaQukCbxgKAbDnz7WtNHxMLcK7_pyDXehEXv0bohLINpXFureR0yOWCH5-pSyfcuCEKpEiXNAWNICj1h0UdED8LslKsvEXc5QqwQE67JVCSzGpiY72qTtuHCtfJldBPc531hJPGP-T9qbGcAjlR8ldFzA4wt47Rht-0vnEkaH25hA9sBlmZHXS_fgeX1/s2381/20231209_161238.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2381" data-original-width="1786" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibSaQukCbxgKAbDnz7WtNHxMLcK7_pyDXehEXv0bohLINpXFureR0yOWCH5-pSyfcuCEKpEiXNAWNICj1h0UdED8LslKsvEXc5QqwQE67JVCSzGpiY72qTtuHCtfJldBPc531hJPGP-T9qbGcAjlR8ldFzA4wt47Rht-0vnEkaH25hA9sBlmZHXS_fgeX1/s320/20231209_161238.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Karley came down to Jacksonville to visit</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPqZNR0I4jv2sco-lE1zizRQBNcurszUkaU0BtBTKGXibJriytd1ntC5nOj8C7Zltd0x0TZhwy6ILJvRJf1NxdX4qf7NrrgySestNdnu7wjFZTpbmWoskhBVCH2rIUlVi9oAjWe7JeAnuzLh9wwl9pGDvVs8tK8T26quq5Q2kXpcbbJI3Zze7wLcfohomM/s1800/41C37D52-B445-407A-A50F-D983745DE680.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1440" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPqZNR0I4jv2sco-lE1zizRQBNcurszUkaU0BtBTKGXibJriytd1ntC5nOj8C7Zltd0x0TZhwy6ILJvRJf1NxdX4qf7NrrgySestNdnu7wjFZTpbmWoskhBVCH2rIUlVi9oAjWe7JeAnuzLh9wwl9pGDvVs8tK8T26quq5Q2kXpcbbJI3Zze7wLcfohomM/s320/41C37D52-B445-407A-A50F-D983745DE680.jpeg" width="256" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Christmas with my girl</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJ_eIB8HojFV_RqjT2eIl1rTpkprJeBHztMfYc8hTsQxTk8IAyGtgNr8zw-OmVc7Jd9VW_gZmYlk-FCxc2dRYwz1Pwo2We3n2xJexx90T8CQwUF7NcMfl2RNxUruRK-An7aDeBc91Zvv9WVWNRcJDxCOZS3VVdSUvf7IuQA-ZH8b1uHei725nixhyMYQ9E/s4032/IMG_9714.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJ_eIB8HojFV_RqjT2eIl1rTpkprJeBHztMfYc8hTsQxTk8IAyGtgNr8zw-OmVc7Jd9VW_gZmYlk-FCxc2dRYwz1Pwo2We3n2xJexx90T8CQwUF7NcMfl2RNxUruRK-An7aDeBc91Zvv9WVWNRcJDxCOZS3VVdSUvf7IuQA-ZH8b1uHei725nixhyMYQ9E/s320/IMG_9714.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">The main cousins (missing Brook)</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWGYRtSII5SZTpjQuxvzxIrunRcu-KZAspX03ZeUGV6IPDK95q0ZgzV3vBrAEkQRmqbj1om0nuAtUBhCd2EmA7ybaWq0_XQCZaOvrDns_amcKDeTn0QizUnk3R7dLxluExSvpwiCqUOweM2YJ68tWNGNWnZmsZJXwogk_L3DRNzvhYPulsxlfYvT9qe9DD/s3088/IMG_9797.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3088" data-original-width="2316" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWGYRtSII5SZTpjQuxvzxIrunRcu-KZAspX03ZeUGV6IPDK95q0ZgzV3vBrAEkQRmqbj1om0nuAtUBhCd2EmA7ybaWq0_XQCZaOvrDns_amcKDeTn0QizUnk3R7dLxluExSvpwiCqUOweM2YJ68tWNGNWnZmsZJXwogk_L3DRNzvhYPulsxlfYvT9qe9DD/s320/IMG_9797.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">My girl Sarah Cat and me...They came home for the holidays!</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgM-0-5sAJmscFYktn3sUseky1G-oKYOfKPpuABFRW9GbYQqEDuoIk5J60CGRa7N3zKX11DiTcYRFbzB5D6jLW5yM_RIQgQ2a4vjHZzGnKvFyX8TdwbRQmL8EkrlhdocNIZNpCUqCRd9fAOglGJnibk6WJbwIjKmEeqP-yTtsXMA4nHAh9eBD9aQWRfhAk_/s4032/IMG_9688.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgM-0-5sAJmscFYktn3sUseky1G-oKYOfKPpuABFRW9GbYQqEDuoIk5J60CGRa7N3zKX11DiTcYRFbzB5D6jLW5yM_RIQgQ2a4vjHZzGnKvFyX8TdwbRQmL8EkrlhdocNIZNpCUqCRd9fAOglGJnibk6WJbwIjKmEeqP-yTtsXMA4nHAh9eBD9aQWRfhAk_/s320/IMG_9688.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">My cousin Lori, she's been an angel to me</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjO3c5NWdAJqXHD8kx6ZpjhJwjQObkZNxJQ68BjHgYl1MtkpcmhZGT2Xvc2A4oJ8m7nqZeumRkzkQE6OurpXAwJDwftEHIr3f38447i0J18dnkNEpdHBnN4hTDbSaSq9lWQ7jDcItI-b5LPC0TeZLLNxc_BUd-b9e-v80xcybepFTp_4tKUCRSz7QGYulMN/s320/IMG_9787.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Karley loved the way Mackenzie and Sarah Cat would wake her up. Yes, thats Mackey on to of her with a pillow.</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT0oKJIKKVmdqteircHZCNBgVf9U2toFv6XRC68l4KUbzA9wvJbGs98WqFzyeYshnJh3aBLT99jcIYrIAbkg2h1vEhoVRbVrJIyinEE7BTGcoGtWdtwe7cKS0JDEp6QU-yNu_S0390Hi6N-TLGq_9gwvw_Yf1yowRnZ7BRn2tyJfxLqkQklfjIa-B-Hx2b/s3088/IMG_9955.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2316" data-original-width="3088" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT0oKJIKKVmdqteircHZCNBgVf9U2toFv6XRC68l4KUbzA9wvJbGs98WqFzyeYshnJh3aBLT99jcIYrIAbkg2h1vEhoVRbVrJIyinEE7BTGcoGtWdtwe7cKS0JDEp6QU-yNu_S0390Hi6N-TLGq_9gwvw_Yf1yowRnZ7BRn2tyJfxLqkQklfjIa-B-Hx2b/s320/IMG_9955.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Lenox, he's meant so much to me. God blessed me with him.</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhC4l_xVDnyl-O4aHPUZzvbEBnX1xrq494t1IGzSOfxMtYK6VGjs1xa_fvLK2t4fKm9llWrubr56qh4MCKTLXoDB29i4q-eP3Y9m2JeWTYwZOCEcCYD3pMAitMjETCuvXuXnKIwVJPfayVG-whbuFMuQIaDevBzo8ccMn_wPrmsnkGtLo2Zv6pB33pP7NCD/s5712/IMG_5201.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5712" data-original-width="4284" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhC4l_xVDnyl-O4aHPUZzvbEBnX1xrq494t1IGzSOfxMtYK6VGjs1xa_fvLK2t4fKm9llWrubr56qh4MCKTLXoDB29i4q-eP3Y9m2JeWTYwZOCEcCYD3pMAitMjETCuvXuXnKIwVJPfayVG-whbuFMuQIaDevBzo8ccMn_wPrmsnkGtLo2Zv6pB33pP7NCD/s320/IMG_5201.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">KARLEY TURNED 19! SHE WAS 7 WHEN I WAS DIAGNOSED.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I GOT TO SEND HER CAKES AND FLOWERS AT GA SOUTHERN!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I didn't have the money too spend, but had to celebrate her birthday far away. She's my angel.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It amazes me that God sent his only son, Jesus Christ, to die for our sins. That is how much he loves us. As a parent, that kind of sacrifice is not possible for me. That just shows how much God truly loves us and we should all praise Him, in all circumstances. There is a reason for everything.</div><br /><p><br /></p><p><a href="https://gofund.me/142847e4" target="_blank">GofundMe-Sam</a><br /></p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-73181881334875189062024-01-13T08:59:00.002-05:002024-01-13T09:00:53.301-05:00Cliff Norton - Starting the day with God<p>As I sit here and drink my morning coffee on this quiet peaceful Saturday morning, I watched a new day begin. And it all came rushing back. The reason I quit advocating, I'm going to Cliff Norton's services next weekend.</p><p>I talked to him last November 13, and since moving to Jacksonville, I wanted to meet up with him for lunch but while planning, he had to take a call. He returned my call later that day and I forgot to call him back. I thought I would wait on the Holidays to be over. I thought I had TIME. Don't we all?</p><p>I, never in a million years, would've predicted my Godly inspiration would be going home the first day of 2024. I loved reading his words of encouragement each day. He is a funny man and football rival who I would tease because I'm a UGA fan. He always had a quick witted smart remark since UGA has been dominating so much lately.</p><p>I would always be up against him and Stephanie Kohn. We lost Stephanie in 2021, the year my father passed. Cliff helped me through so much. Now they are reunited in heaven with their love for the Gators. </p><p>But, I will not be discouraged. Cliff would want us to carry on and fight. He would tell us that we are here to bring people closer to Christ and to not be discouraged. Because we may have troubles in this life, but Christ has overcome the world. - John 16:33</p><p>So, the man, the legend, and my personal inspiration is home and no longer has to suffer. He's been set free, and in the end, that's all we could hope for. I'll see you on the other side my friend. I love you and thank you for the inspiration you always gave to everyone.</p><p>I've written a article for Healthline with more detail but this is my picture place, my journal for the world, my journal for my daughter, my baby. His service will be Jan 20 at 5:30 in Jacksonville for those who want to attend,</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2KGAVcLV4j6cj3KJT0fjX4Su-2ijnwNoaaXx5-9tO5PucmBhQSnW6M0oap0mquF3fUEP2Nfi-27JMMIKMVvRjPehWoyW0ZnlG3gLN2OKiKsbjup0xJ7W7BvJGUFByYqLKmgiof8IwcLJDHb9h2mzZBDyavANBaGKUB2SHHtYsnvYAsCDTQxiI5oGVRjof/s1080/IMG_9940.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2KGAVcLV4j6cj3KJT0fjX4Su-2ijnwNoaaXx5-9tO5PucmBhQSnW6M0oap0mquF3fUEP2Nfi-27JMMIKMVvRjPehWoyW0ZnlG3gLN2OKiKsbjup0xJ7W7BvJGUFByYqLKmgiof8IwcLJDHb9h2mzZBDyavANBaGKUB2SHHtYsnvYAsCDTQxiI5oGVRjof/s320/IMG_9940.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><br class="Apple-interchange-newline" />We talked before this, but if you look in the background, Cliff is in the white shirt and I'm in the blue next to him. We were both speakers at Jacksonville's "Free to Breathe" event. It was the first time we met face to face back in 2015.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLJm7ZbMAN3UkSwJxNjRkhwUA429MsfWBuFEqPy4WXyWU0WnvX4t-3oI0g0Il6AjLj_VED-WKkS8pFayhNdobJyzco-YRug_P9iZLJs21Sw51w9-ExEVhAGKP08N8stiNXFsjkgiAdwiqSYnqH5wzVddcrK2G76k5rZdgXBfcX1XkbP26Zodwp9EEQ9xjp/s1852/IMG_9948.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1852" data-original-width="1170" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLJm7ZbMAN3UkSwJxNjRkhwUA429MsfWBuFEqPy4WXyWU0WnvX4t-3oI0g0Il6AjLj_VED-WKkS8pFayhNdobJyzco-YRug_P9iZLJs21Sw51w9-ExEVhAGKP08N8stiNXFsjkgiAdwiqSYnqH5wzVddcrK2G76k5rZdgXBfcX1XkbP26Zodwp9EEQ9xjp/s320/IMG_9948.jpg" width="202" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">to say we were friendly rivals was an understatement</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6XetLwdBAF0EuG-2hIoSIuYxGvDBJaX4so0Mju5yu8I3MbtyLIkI1SlY6bvq4plEnPq7h7xJRArVrEzT1mPILFskv2_-B1YnD903zdnQiAwsPg_3WscETtb4gQuxojL3Pf56NAmGMhDGFWUpiKPHG-JPaigIUQus-VE7OCJX4TqyPVXWFYMur2Iihwish/s1807/IMG_9949.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1807" data-original-width="1170" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6XetLwdBAF0EuG-2hIoSIuYxGvDBJaX4so0Mju5yu8I3MbtyLIkI1SlY6bvq4plEnPq7h7xJRArVrEzT1mPILFskv2_-B1YnD903zdnQiAwsPg_3WscETtb4gQuxojL3Pf56NAmGMhDGFWUpiKPHG-JPaigIUQus-VE7OCJX4TqyPVXWFYMur2Iihwish/s320/IMG_9949.jpg" width="207" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">But we always laughed with each other</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Rest In Paradise sweet friend. I shall see you again. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwHW9U783dgTxmCtJ4yRn7HHhDZlHc1NlhsPpPhm0zCrBhgWI79B_OX75txX6koFBY7aHvHOXOQ4mqZCjQqsI2PDLsW9SdBvQXNmKl-hvaJVxOUi38ZFWiF82RphfsIVedRsjYXPzHMspaQ_j6aOytq81aZ0G8qAFgevS2SkfY7HC44Rb7PVYFLjtH8eb6/s1170/IMG_9947.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="661" data-original-width="1170" height="181" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwHW9U783dgTxmCtJ4yRn7HHhDZlHc1NlhsPpPhm0zCrBhgWI79B_OX75txX6koFBY7aHvHOXOQ4mqZCjQqsI2PDLsW9SdBvQXNmKl-hvaJVxOUi38ZFWiF82RphfsIVedRsjYXPzHMspaQ_j6aOytq81aZ0G8qAFgevS2SkfY7HC44Rb7PVYFLjtH8eb6/s320/IMG_9947.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div><br /></div>My favorite song and one he quoted often, Casting Crowns - <a href="https://youtu.be/BCc7TCmKcwQ?si=IZoJ4nd9mDbqXBf8" target="_blank">Scars in Heaven</a>. PLEASE LISTEN<div><br /></div><div>He is free from this disease. He won.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p></div>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-38361694062709505662023-08-15T23:52:00.005-04:002023-08-15T23:52:56.759-04:00UPDATE - Scan results and pics...(not what I hoped for but I'll take it)<p>So, we dropped Karley off at Georgia Southern and then I came to Atlanta for scans. I know I haven't posted in a while, but I'm still here. I promise to let you all know if I start going downhill. Nothing worse than reading a lung cancer friend died and you didn't get to say goodbye.</p><p>My friend Jessie and I hung out Sunday. It was super fun. However, her medication has begun effecting her heart. Therefore, she's decided to discontinue it at this time. December will be 8 years of living with lung cancer for her.</p><p>I had all of my scans yesterday in hopes that we could spread them out because copays are killing me. The good news is, there is no knew cancer. It is still stable and not causing any issues.</p><p>The bad news is, I've had another stroke, further damaging my brain. It happened in the occiputal lobe I believe from the results. It's a distinct FLAIR so my oncologist is getting with my neuro-oncologist on how to proceed. For now, I'm still on blood thinners and am starting a baby asprin in the mornings.</p><p>I have noticed that not only is my memory declining, but it's becoming harder for me to think of words or even spell them. (so no jokes peeps!). And sometimes I feel like my eyes are crossing. I'm following up again in 3 months.</p><p>I feel very blessed that I'm still here and got to help Karley move in to college. I got to watch her graduate. These are milestones that were virtually impossible in 2012. And some of my closest friends didn't get to experience these. I know God isn't done with me yet.</p><p>Please don't take this as a discouraging post. It's far from it. It's been almost 11 years! And I've had a very good life and don't plan on going anywhere. But if I do, my friends and family (especially my girl Karley) better remember how much I love them and no tears. None of us are guaranteed tomorrow. </p><p>You know I love to throw in pics of milestones and my girl and things we do. </p><p>I did lose my best friend, Amanda. I can't remember what happened, but I know she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I'be been worried about her. I think I worried too much.. We were going to live together after our kids went to college. Because I can't afford to live without a roommate with disability. So, within a year my entire life plan changed. I really don't have a plan at the moment. It's just hard thinking about everything and everyone I've lost over the past few years.</p><p>But here are some milestone and fun day pics. Enjoy and I'll keep you all updated. Oh yeah, we moved out of our house after 8 years. It was sad. So many great memories. It's so crazy. Where do I go from here? (besides more doctors ๐)</p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAN8CrdDbkiDUhF6feCk1fJ4-XJTdV0d8JN7sxvfKsVmHaRNT7d27_iLxYkTGaUVjOH66QJfY1LSgwS9wci8kMoVIPwXhsQAYYnZHu7x9z8kZ5yPJRBys7uazUE3bYvmSmd2a-yb_APkFVq2ndOw1fy5Rchgp5dK3-ZLZ4FdykzM9vuPUvzenm7GIiefBN/s1800/CCA0834E-18A4-4531-8109-72373683FE65.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1440" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAN8CrdDbkiDUhF6feCk1fJ4-XJTdV0d8JN7sxvfKsVmHaRNT7d27_iLxYkTGaUVjOH66QJfY1LSgwS9wci8kMoVIPwXhsQAYYnZHu7x9z8kZ5yPJRBys7uazUE3bYvmSmd2a-yb_APkFVq2ndOw1fy5Rchgp5dK3-ZLZ4FdykzM9vuPUvzenm7GIiefBN/s320/CCA0834E-18A4-4531-8109-72373683FE65.jpeg" width="256" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Like no more strokes?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgS4OlBl-YZ1jsiaSkmDqAnyJcAZfisXubA7Osp6r7ctCrebkDAASCeYHm6jnJKnZtAdtgDlirAKXdSMIViqEoXjcOK9RZtJtp-Id-lSbILWw93QKRMssSBemCqfAaH0jvk1CTcThOd_wGgROntcW6UUirnLKbKhcP9wfudUxysz7_-meYowT78yUae4oQ6/s1800/77226114-A262-43BA-AC50-FFEE46B6BD48.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1440" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgS4OlBl-YZ1jsiaSkmDqAnyJcAZfisXubA7Osp6r7ctCrebkDAASCeYHm6jnJKnZtAdtgDlirAKXdSMIViqEoXjcOK9RZtJtp-Id-lSbILWw93QKRMssSBemCqfAaH0jvk1CTcThOd_wGgROntcW6UUirnLKbKhcP9wfudUxysz7_-meYowT78yUae4oQ6/s320/77226114-A262-43BA-AC50-FFEE46B6BD48.jpeg" width="256" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;">Too fast - I remember signing her up for school here</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-2HUJg4P7QYyotgQOmdraa2TEoEpaPmDxuNP5B4wtIjf5k-mZJMD4u31X5SYmRTzyTyJADknW7L0_vEXcvU4AFoO-x3pHzdIfb15IKLnQO4XDleIKEP9_2i8AtmtzN21xul8AZbm5e5rpsf298Va6UHTm3UD69cW36W16RWwxnKWNUNLGYji93Usbiv_c/s4032/Facetune_24-05-2023-08-54-59.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-2HUJg4P7QYyotgQOmdraa2TEoEpaPmDxuNP5B4wtIjf5k-mZJMD4u31X5SYmRTzyTyJADknW7L0_vEXcvU4AFoO-x3pHzdIfb15IKLnQO4XDleIKEP9_2i8AtmtzN21xul8AZbm5e5rpsf298Va6UHTm3UD69cW36W16RWwxnKWNUNLGYji93Usbiv_c/s320/Facetune_24-05-2023-08-54-59.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">The "moms" - our kids have been friends since Kindergarten</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9kd7QEk4gbLH9QZhXAJcPt3n8VsVs4Cq0KzP1Zqk3DTaY8YCqwLWeMbBpEd09iA98gtiyxfjP9TY7xRsTzto0awzB7tn9esQAY7JsRWHZa5AcWOYOtFjfI6qsWNDh5zM6wxNGQLLOxYgyMpiwwoAVuwwG7gjOKeqd4xo3BBXAUL76-xP1JtJuiOGamNhW/s1169/Facetune_27-05-2023-14-40-07.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1169" data-original-width="1091" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9kd7QEk4gbLH9QZhXAJcPt3n8VsVs4Cq0KzP1Zqk3DTaY8YCqwLWeMbBpEd09iA98gtiyxfjP9TY7xRsTzto0awzB7tn9esQAY7JsRWHZa5AcWOYOtFjfI6qsWNDh5zM6wxNGQLLOxYgyMpiwwoAVuwwG7gjOKeqd4xo3BBXAUL76-xP1JtJuiOGamNhW/s320/Facetune_27-05-2023-14-40-07.jpeg" width="299" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Graduation was freezing rain</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9SOf-MFMv9hRrl6coxnijjbLtt2J71TxatNPQdDmFiTperObipqFnOL-sOh22G1IgEsEFGhIaBI7_zaO8kb-uhfmJ4fUrS-iLS8J75Er8lgzPcEO3aDNWNMN-ppRsfTuXvgzyXQCED0bpqLKO0Uf8eepTX7ZdBn5NyuaDJoa2YAlcGimswZx0Dsvhcxtx/s4032/Facetune_31-07-2023-14-49-39.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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text-align: center;">Oglethorpe Point Elementary Class of 2023</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZfyiQdL_kTdp4JBOgyLCRINaxpaVdahjCsGuPSEiO8ROrob68lBRA8roc8wgz8rTviw3TrZ8pxpcHNnIiwudrQcFp_w4RXbPyee1FfX24prR1jXwSJfpKEkcabxK3ho7dCLFkyVmx6gpq1cZxIRUbY5qaPOq4Om8gSNZytSzvJnM-SoIc5t08M6V19Xs3/s1936/IMG_6751.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1936" data-original-width="1936" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZfyiQdL_kTdp4JBOgyLCRINaxpaVdahjCsGuPSEiO8ROrob68lBRA8roc8wgz8rTviw3TrZ8pxpcHNnIiwudrQcFp_w4RXbPyee1FfX24prR1jXwSJfpKEkcabxK3ho7dCLFkyVmx6gpq1cZxIRUbY5qaPOq4Om8gSNZytSzvJnM-SoIc5t08M6V19Xs3/s320/IMG_6751.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Moms and daughters in that order -we go WAY back</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;">Got to see my lil sis and nieces after 2 years!</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2X9zJf36_AofFIrcXkjDpE1KvQB091ElfOvBIFz3J-YZq4iH0BH9LK7gR8jruZMc3PZ3TmhOce55mtWdQr41hnfb2RP94Qyp7pmixpc7sYnCtMSUHzzxHnp1FFBD1Oh3axBCIJhNrM_BNG9ZMclQNfxK0njgeB-R_4tTqFJKXirWzXTIaDDcVckZCjuwO/s1954/IMG_7753.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1954" data-original-width="1170" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2X9zJf36_AofFIrcXkjDpE1KvQB091ElfOvBIFz3J-YZq4iH0BH9LK7gR8jruZMc3PZ3TmhOce55mtWdQr41hnfb2RP94Qyp7pmixpc7sYnCtMSUHzzxHnp1FFBD1Oh3axBCIJhNrM_BNG9ZMclQNfxK0njgeB-R_4tTqFJKXirWzXTIaDDcVckZCjuwO/s320/IMG_7753.jpeg" width="192" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5rPg0ILPz7iFDsB_Ig2zeatv0O9Sa8AmWPjQHwhha1Oiu9QH9co71p6JBlPFCT5L3fqYpnsiZOec0P_4JtDSqMKn61agRsyNEQHd4Ai4uuYuRadD70z_8NIG7R38bhmoaOLpayhOD86qYCM49WXWNzc9OWj39T-QIjD5vClx7YbX_ZJB0Zrmsx9nOMaQC/s1444/IMG_7758.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="575" data-original-width="1013" height="182" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpM3s7aZuf6XeibYoOSwFXFUxI-xBmxBjm94vD6fG_OBqs6Y7a-GrgzcUhgVGxLfpzD7X--VaAW_Sm9yL4xnfKejKbRz_-8yYZmFo8vaTaBzvZIdG2bdsQ-A_16rKbgrlO5DNEiEu7smSGR9XHjBpnB0aG9H6PN7mELEPBNHgoNoB7Ws7GI9cuNeNUZ_uB/s320/IMG_7807.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">My favorite pic of these two Besties</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqYR_IdfEPCzKqFDM1mlWfkiIirDk1WYDuJ0MlrRZIvlUd7UU3g60_kG8DhVtWHFeJz_7RREURoMeLcCOv-DPxQPVem-ikCJnWljozUk00A8SuGml7-Bu7XJmwUqUaV20XL0G-1n9QBAjoY1BjNAudzGtPom_HAOkKqR9ZzwnxHreMOFzh4plxSktDjX0_/s896/Tezza-2772.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="896" data-original-width="672" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqYR_IdfEPCzKqFDM1mlWfkiIirDk1WYDuJ0MlrRZIvlUd7UU3g60_kG8DhVtWHFeJz_7RREURoMeLcCOv-DPxQPVem-ikCJnWljozUk00A8SuGml7-Bu7XJmwUqUaV20XL0G-1n9QBAjoY1BjNAudzGtPom_HAOkKqR9ZzwnxHreMOFzh4plxSktDjX0_/s320/Tezza-2772.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Love these girls</div><br /><p><br /></p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-78522348971449221892023-03-04T20:38:00.001-05:002023-03-04T20:38:56.273-05:00Lost<p> It's now March 2023. Never, in my wildest dreams did I think I would survive this long. It's somewhat of a catch 22 at this point. I'm so blessed that I'm here and will get to see Karley graduate, then she'll be off to college.</p><p>I didn't plan to make it this long. What am I supposed to do now? I get ssdi. in the amount of $2,000 a month. I have good and bad days and I have to move this summer. My former boss gave me some money to pay off any debts and I could not be more grateful for the time he has been in my life. 17 years, he's like a second father.</p><p>It'll be 2 years this month since my dad left us to go home to the Lord. I thought I would go before everyone, but God keeps me here. </p><p>And at this path in my life, I'm not sure what to do. I can't afford rent, utilities, groceries, dr. appts and car insurance on my income. Much less help Karley. I had a plan for someone to help me out, that I've been counting on forever. I would do the books and he would pay my rent. </p><p>Well, that didn't work out and I just found out yesterday. The week that I've had has been unbelievable. For two weeks I was hardcore working day and night. I was exhausted and thought it was part time, had no idea so much would be involved. It was so stressful I'm still tired. I did the best I could, but sometimes people can be so caught up in what they are doing, they don't see what you can still bring to the table. </p><p>My friend and co-owner of the antique store I have a booth in was stabbed in the neck by a homeless person. We weren't sure if he was going to make it and I kept thinking I stepped away from a lot of the lung cancer community, and he was safe. So I wouldn't lose this friend. And just the fact I almost did sent me over the edge. Of course I looked incompetent to my new job so that is out the window. </p><p>I think I'm having PTSD or something. I just feel pain in my stomach to my heart. It's hard to focus and concentrate. I really want to not move, but I don't have a choice since my landlord has been so kind and let me stay so long. </p><p>And now I'm not working with that guy anymore, someone I've counted on, how do I live? I can't afford my own place but want one so Karley can visit. Without her I feel numb. If anyone is looking for a bookkeeper or someone to help set up HR, please let me know. Or any ideas at this point would be great. I'm so tired and lost and have just given it to God. Anyway, any suggestions would be great. Even open to a roommate. I'll post more later. I'm suddenly so tired. I'll continue tomorrow. Good night all</p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-52290902229730506012022-11-27T21:04:00.000-05:002022-11-27T21:04:05.002-05:00Catch Up, Cancerversary, and more<p> Today is my official 10 year Cancerversary. The doctors gave me a year to live. NEVER LISTEN TO THEIR PROJECTIONS. Let me tell you why. </p><p>I was preparing for the past 10 years to die. I saved money for Karley, but not myself. I've planned for Karley's college, but not my future. Of course I had somewhat of a plan beginning this year. It was a plan that got me through until Thanksgiving. That's when it completely fell apart. So, it's just myself and the dogs, and I'm so lost. </p><p>My disability will not cover somewhere where I can keep both of them but they love each other so much. I can't bare to separate them. I had someone I was going to live with. Someone that has let me down in the past, but of course, I trusted too much. I wanted to be able to be at peace for the time I really get sick and need help. </p><p>I've since come to learn, I'm alone. My sister is in San Diego and my mother isn't going to live forever, we are all getting older, but to say I'm scared is an understatement. I'm terrified. I can't think of anything else other than hospital hospice. </p><p>I didn't plan for it or want it and there is no way I'm making Karley take care of me. I want her to live life to the fullest, not be bogged down with my issues. </p><p>I've been let down before, but the realization that I must move in 7 months, alone, is just kicking in. Thank you God for Xanax. I plan on leaving this area and am going to head north since my mom is in Atlanta. </p><p>When you trust someone with your future when you have cancer, you should be able to fully trust them. Honestly, it's so shameful to let down someone with this disease. And it's not just that person. So many people think, "10 years, she's fine, she survived". But, that's not true. The cancer lays dormant and can come back at any time. So, both the person I loved and my very best friend have both abandoned me, or let me down to the point they would be toxic in my life.</p><p>I keep questioning God what I did to deserve this. I try to help people to the point I get overwhelmed. You can really only count on yourself in this world. Put your faith in God and see where it takes you. These next few months should be interesting. I get to put a whole new future plan together, after living here for 17 years. </p><p>I'm happy I am here to see Karley graduate. It was another milestone I needed to accomplish. And to all those who I've loved that have gone before me, I feel somewhat guilty. You can't help but feel survivors guilt when you've lost so many friends. </p><p>Anyways, these are my thoughts for tonight. The Pirates of the Spanish Main did the second annual white ribbon project on the island today. I plan on writing a whole separate blog about that in a few days. </p><p>Otherwise, just realize not only do I feel survivors guilt, I'm also trying to figure out how to survive. Please enjoy these pics of Senior night at Glynn Academy Volleyball. Our girls made it to the elite eight in the state but they all caught the flu and had no energy! Still super proud of them making it this far!</p><p>By the way, Riley Mansfield and Karley are so close that I couldn't even look at the two of them without crying, or Alyssa, Riley's mom. They've played together so long and Riley leaves for Tulane in January, the day before Karley's birthday. I have loved the love these girls have had for each other from Karate when little to volleyball throughout. </p><p>You can pinpoint the exact moment I started crying. On the overhead, they said, "when asking Karley who is her biggest inspiration, she said 'my parents'". It's in the pictures. I don't think I stopped because they asked Riley what the best part about playing volleyball has been, they announced that she said, "The friendships that you make". And she and Karley just looked at each other. I was a hot mess that night. I didn't stop crying. </p><p>Life is a rollercoaster. And I cherish every second of these moments when I get to be here for things I wasn't supposed to be here for. And I give all the glory to God. </p><p>I also promise to start blogging more. How else are you all to know where I end up! I'll update the white ribbon project Wed. or Thur. 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Now, I'm assuming J's dad thinks I'm not the real Samantha Mixon...but come on. Those that know me know I've loved playing video games when stuck in the house. Right now, I'm stuck. And I'm not ashamed. We play Fortinite in this house. It gives me an escape when I desperately need one. How do I prove you prove to someone you are who you say you are? Well, I'm writing in now.....and Please, Facetime me J's dad. You have no idea what I've been through. So playing a video game helps. Dad cannot do research and say I am fake, just because I have articles online.. J's got my number. Facetime me. Please. </p><p>And to all the moms and dads out there, when I play and kids are playing, I don't let your kids cuss or pick on others. It's not right and sometimes mom and dad don't see that. So, Mr. Jerzee's dad, I challenge you to facetime me. So you can see, I have been fighting for my life for 10 years. I'll show you my array of wigs or the black dress I wore to the superbowl. And would even show you my daughter but she's out of town. </p><p>So, It is very disheartening, that an adult such as yourself can come to the conclusion that I'm fake. Especially after this fight for my lfe that I'm still in. However, I will continue to fight with God on my side, and when you meet him at the pearly gates, you can explain why you lied to your daughter. J, It was fun playing on there with you. But I cannot stand liars. If you have a question, ask it.. Dont ASSume, because you know, thats a bad look. A little disappointed in you too J. You didn't do your own research.</p><p>However, J's Dad, I do applaud you for keeping up with who your daughter was playing with. Too many parents these days don't do that. But if I end up playing with your kid, rest assured, no creepers will be around. As a mom myself, I would want someone to do the same for me. So how about a little communication before you pass judgment? My only Judge is God.</p><p>I had to step away from advocacy to preserve my own mental state. But I still show up most times and keep my blog active. Don't forget, none of us are here forever.</p><p>She has my number and so do you. Think what you want, but I am me. So you can continue lying to her or call me.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1LHQ9VrRZtcEpFjfr-foxvk1O1MKOAsGczkOlZqcrTkXrdnr8oeiHqniTOLHnTBt9bXbn1YGEEK4mfOvJvCIGYvGLM0l0_vHOv_JRlQYEoAwH5daNvh858Fb9WH5rknkYqQZf3-u8FFX-MqM1kFVu3EtfhS9r8y26k_B8GoBT0MAaZ5KY-2Eoh9IZ3Q/s3088/IMG_2187%20(1).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3088" data-original-width="2316" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1LHQ9VrRZtcEpFjfr-foxvk1O1MKOAsGczkOlZqcrTkXrdnr8oeiHqniTOLHnTBt9bXbn1YGEEK4mfOvJvCIGYvGLM0l0_vHOv_JRlQYEoAwH5daNvh858Fb9WH5rknkYqQZf3-u8FFX-MqM1kFVu3EtfhS9r8y26k_B8GoBT0MAaZ5KY-2Eoh9IZ3Q/s320/IMG_2187%20(1).jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and....Rona got me UGH</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiksPWR4tBHdDF0WIYBkyc5HKD4_meuiAs1WAqT5HfBb7x4yqnYFnR1SIJf-eGjmDRuT0eokJXyguOW6lF3RieEdEOQPr3UQcg0pLmcDEb1CZAnSX3py5xrRIJJEQlecd5x2nYt_MEclktMasPJlcyj1-jr-AeyiOVhb9HHHR081_dvpvVKaHcYc6YaPQ/s1544/IMG_8705_Facetune_27-04-2019-10-45-22.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1544" data-original-width="1160" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiksPWR4tBHdDF0WIYBkyc5HKD4_meuiAs1WAqT5HfBb7x4yqnYFnR1SIJf-eGjmDRuT0eokJXyguOW6lF3RieEdEOQPr3UQcg0pLmcDEb1CZAnSX3py5xrRIJJEQlecd5x2nYt_MEclktMasPJlcyj1-jr-AeyiOVhb9HHHR081_dvpvVKaHcYc6YaPQ/s320/IMG_8705_Facetune_27-04-2019-10-45-22.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">And to Gina Hollenbeck who we recently lost. You were an amazing advocate and your legend will live on. I love you girl. My heart was broken yesterday. The Lung Cancer community is no longer the same. Fly high sista. I'll see you soon. And teach you to play Fortnite too. </div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-78196104637367321212022-06-09T10:34:00.001-04:002022-06-09T10:38:13.286-04:00She's fine. She's been alive so long and doesn't even look sick. -TRIGGER WARNING<p> I don't pay attention to social media anymore, so unless someone tells me, I rarely know what's going on. I am not purposely insensitive. And I don't expect people to stop their world because of me. I always love prayers. But I mainly keep to myself because I know others have so much going on. Unless something drastic happens, I never post about my condition anymore. I have heard this so much, that I can't begin to explain how I have to just sit there and listen to people who have never been in my shoes, or tried, to chastise me for not checking on them. I don't know if something is wrong unless someone tells me. I am doing my best to survive and be a good mother and good Christian. Please forgive any grammatical errors or misspellings (sister lol). I'm too tired to check.</p><p>Speaking of shoes, after over 9 years of tarceva, my nails are growing into my skin. I'm constantly having to pull them out. I'm going to see a dermatologist too, if anything could be done. It's not just my toes, it's also my fingernails. In fact, some of my toenails are just falling off. All of my nails are weak and brittle and sometimes the nail breaks off in the skin and I have to keep digging. I have a topical solution to put on them, but needless to say, it's painful to type because my fingernails are so thin. </p><p>I've gained about 20 lbs since January. Yay say most cancer patients. But, the only reason I gained it is because I've been dealing with my nails and MRSA since the holidays. I haven't been able to walk properly without pain.</p><p>Additionally, I have moderate degenerative cervical disc disease as well as a possible torn rotator cuff. I've also been living with a fractured rib for about two years. When I bend over to clean something, part of the rib makes presses inside and I have to immediately lay flat on my back. It's so frustrating to barely be able to sit. I mostly lay back or walk, not sit.</p><p>I've also heard how I've kicked cancer's ass. That could be further from the truth in clinical terms. I have a genomic mutation that will eventually find a way around my medication and I will become actively sick again. By then, I'm biding my time and waiting patiently for something great to come up.</p><p>I still get pet scans every 3 months. The first week in July I have an MRI, Petscan, Oncology appt, dermatologist appt, Pulmonologist appt, Orthopedic appt, and a mammogram. I'm pretty sure I will meet my annual deductible at that point. </p><p>I just had a follow-up with palliative care, which has been a lifesaver for the pain. Additionally, I will most likely end up in the ER because the back of my calf is hurting so bad I can barely walk. Which could also mean a DVT (blood clot). I still have two smaller pulmonary embolisms.</p><p>A friend called me recently, and I completely broke down crying because I felt for once, that someone without cancer was really "getting me". </p><p>You see, most people think I quit advocating because I was cancer-free. WRONG. I will always be stage 4 lung cancer until the day I die. The best I can hope for is stability. My right lung is awful.</p><p>Don't get me wrong, I have been amazingly blessed by God to still be here. I'm not sure why (which is the same question I asked when I found out I was sick). The reason I quit advocating is that the loss broke me. Yes, motivational speakers will tell me to carry on for them. But I'm tired, so tired. All of the women recently passed in the last year or two. My friend told me it's like being in a war. He's damn right. But, I didn't sign up for this and neither did they. So, I hold them and my father close in my heart. And a huge shout out to Lyndsi Kofal who wrote a statement last night that nailed exactly how I feel mentally and physically.</p><p>I've always felt like I'm running in circles, Einstein's theory of insanity when advocating. I burned out. And I decided, that whatever time I have left will be with my family. So, I have pretty much distanced myself from social media. I'll post pics of Karley and memories occasionally. But, when I open my feed, I can't help but be so deeply depressed seeing other lung cancer friends fighting, but still going downhill. </p><p>After all, your heart can only take so much. Mine is shattered and I don't know if it will ever be repaired. </p><p>So, as for the title, I'm not fine mentally or physically. I don't always look sick when I put on makeup, but I am. And living so long is a blessing in terms of my daughter, but a curse when it comes to relationships, mentality, and pain.</p><p>So, trigger warning, the worst of the Pics are at the bottom. But these are 3 different nails. They are still attached. I've had 3 just completely fall off. So, folks, this is lung cancer. This is me and not a day goes by I'm not reminded of my limitations.</p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZP5gnWb1C6kwX0Ot5O-6w3-c1sWZtwo8u2u7lyzw4R2tTCQLaTeGGnHOQitJLyxWl82L1lwXhezMRIH2md6DuetCu054XfRmZRULplSz9OuX-bi_eDlTv_JCNZvtm5_Bid3BjZbsL8XS8aeWvF9B3az7o3P4DnfxQaQeGLQNXUvp1twPKCre7B89heQ/s640/IMG_0528_Facetune_08-06-2022-23-33-16.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="480" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZP5gnWb1C6kwX0Ot5O-6w3-c1sWZtwo8u2u7lyzw4R2tTCQLaTeGGnHOQitJLyxWl82L1lwXhezMRIH2md6DuetCu054XfRmZRULplSz9OuX-bi_eDlTv_JCNZvtm5_Bid3BjZbsL8XS8aeWvF9B3az7o3P4DnfxQaQeGLQNXUvp1twPKCre7B89heQ/s320/IMG_0528_Facetune_08-06-2022-23-33-16.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCSVDjNo0RRw3eKnISH11bCfGwWHcXCqJn_co2xc4KLZv3Udlix6vIguh6aLBeeatzDh79vduqX3iVUe8WCL7CNoVb608t2uzzy3MxXLOPc4IAdjPb8NrNJDto1jvxLrdBfAqaET-CmdGmUJ-KacWYKfhWH3dwR_1Qh2w-ZjRXe-vLMLazQMGE6lu1gA/s640/IMG_0519_Facetune_08-06-2022-23-43-33.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="513" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCSVDjNo0RRw3eKnISH11bCfGwWHcXCqJn_co2xc4KLZv3Udlix6vIguh6aLBeeatzDh79vduqX3iVUe8WCL7CNoVb608t2uzzy3MxXLOPc4IAdjPb8NrNJDto1jvxLrdBfAqaET-CmdGmUJ-KacWYKfhWH3dwR_1Qh2w-ZjRXe-vLMLazQMGE6lu1gA/s320/IMG_0519_Facetune_08-06-2022-23-43-33.jpg" width="257" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">ON THE BRIGHBRIGHT SIDETSIDE. MY HAIR IS GROWING, AND MY DOG IS CONFUSED.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3jLSQMC2h3gaL5WMUjPW9S0XGsEztM3NssNA85Vwys9mtKytGyrfq9tXJMLZMnjrhnNdXN0YN9ZKx8G8m3fJHFKKFmDanyLuyjX5pJCR8VXl_axjKb_4MwTyTICkJCh6s0PSrPMYKQKr-mBxLoKVtFGIIlOeQ2oyGrslRKSLRzthfqfd7QhIoZEMG1A/s1280/IMG_0166.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1280" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3jLSQMC2h3gaL5WMUjPW9S0XGsEztM3NssNA85Vwys9mtKytGyrfq9tXJMLZMnjrhnNdXN0YN9ZKx8G8m3fJHFKKFmDanyLuyjX5pJCR8VXl_axjKb_4MwTyTICkJCh6s0PSrPMYKQKr-mBxLoKVtFGIIlOeQ2oyGrslRKSLRzthfqfd7QhIoZEMG1A/s320/IMG_0166.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">MY WORLD</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwlJvB_9SVwbDEkV2ipeSr28iIA9nx89LmRsrnrLyp6nbXWydf8sF_v9C4sfcBXfmwtl8inno7gnAsJglINUqZzcTv_uLzG_nSTn8XXbUP5rbwkouc5bJbeBO7T9xmgTqQkABwveeDeDZWXYrIwHN61UxJSz_do-G4veBKlQrTu6V5zEnYV4cusB0K7A/s960/IMG_0265.JPG" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="488" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwlJvB_9SVwbDEkV2ipeSr28iIA9nx89LmRsrnrLyp6nbXWydf8sF_v9C4sfcBXfmwtl8inno7gnAsJglINUqZzcTv_uLzG_nSTn8XXbUP5rbwkouc5bJbeBO7T9xmgTqQkABwveeDeDZWXYrIwHN61UxJSz_do-G4veBKlQrTu6V5zEnYV4cusB0K7A/s320/IMG_0265.JPG" width="163" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaZ51qDnztb8HMGc2Uy3_dT-zQ2V2K88qg40PK9LlD4ZZP97_-y63FdMpJ2JDcbmF1u48JisOW_bOldZRhvXp0E_hAp14rMTSlxLZ_8_v7md0JrGpKXOmHRzQDce9AAbxMG-jfyYTlASvRBROto8KclFj9vfHTgVzndbcEEQ17_b4MCUCXCr0BbFTvMA/s960/IMG_0268.JPG" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaZ51qDnztb8HMGc2Uy3_dT-zQ2V2K88qg40PK9LlD4ZZP97_-y63FdMpJ2JDcbmF1u48JisOW_bOldZRhvXp0E_hAp14rMTSlxLZ_8_v7md0JrGpKXOmHRzQDce9AAbxMG-jfyYTlASvRBROto8KclFj9vfHTgVzndbcEEQ17_b4MCUCXCr0BbFTvMA/s320/IMG_0268.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">THESE WOMEN ARE GONE. THEY ARE JUST THE ONES OVER THE PAST YEAR OR SO.</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhbYyoL_daC9ZCll3sdxDuIilYNG0_pe02ytY6FtYGvQTzT0W1Mmt4AuEDDigL4BfXqX5x1VAh-XVFO6pDHuXeNUoWNZCSTAKhnqHTIIRyzG7BpjMnLTHbTsJ2Gue3arKK6PTHdBrpba4TDJ9IZf4q211JBl1Gu_rh_pRKMQvI8SQZR-1jwbiM4y8GxA/s1280/IMG_0316.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="816" data-original-width="1280" height="204" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhbYyoL_daC9ZCll3sdxDuIilYNG0_pe02ytY6FtYGvQTzT0W1Mmt4AuEDDigL4BfXqX5x1VAh-XVFO6pDHuXeNUoWNZCSTAKhnqHTIIRyzG7BpjMnLTHbTsJ2Gue3arKK6PTHdBrpba4TDJ9IZf4q211JBl1Gu_rh_pRKMQvI8SQZR-1jwbiM4y8GxA/s320/IMG_0316.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIR28xJ39ezmD4LovlZ6pL4DGJLMTqO6UDLoRcM_k65B8-DBMRFHGxYQy2ECWi-06hXHTm2mvfpZx6q-lnyohxFu0ruKh87rSruESz4Z2dlr_G_5Li7mGkIN_TdWm55N6nFqAeCMycLRFIuIFRHD-Y5kjLRsRaYryDBT7UNBt2B5RHgXxSNcbvpSSGaA/s1124/IMG_0537.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="649" data-original-width="1124" height="185" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIR28xJ39ezmD4LovlZ6pL4DGJLMTqO6UDLoRcM_k65B8-DBMRFHGxYQy2ECWi-06hXHTm2mvfpZx6q-lnyohxFu0ruKh87rSruESz4Z2dlr_G_5Li7mGkIN_TdWm55N6nFqAeCMycLRFIuIFRHD-Y5kjLRsRaYryDBT7UNBt2B5RHgXxSNcbvpSSGaA/s320/IMG_0537.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I MISS MY LITTLE SISTER IN SUCH A SIMPLER TIME</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">TRIGGER WARNING: GROSS PICS BUT THIS IS REALITY. AND ITS OFTEN.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I DIDN'T TAKE PICS OF THE AREAS WHERE I HAVE NO NAILS ANYMORE.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2p54-nQX-QQVKj7QiTzSpa5Fm-MzMVSkZZQU_djs6cM7-A8W5EaIcETSfljDUFiWndsDdbRlUokrUD2P7fh2k2FXpfcVibhmaaV6HRP8u_ObZuTXeyNhJq4Gqxb0lqcpe5iRuuf11dDSdW5n3RZ7DeWtg0BQVQ82MjDR8BKdO_N_q3funmN2pQi0LoQ/s1280/IMG_0141.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2p54-nQX-QQVKj7QiTzSpa5Fm-MzMVSkZZQU_djs6cM7-A8W5EaIcETSfljDUFiWndsDdbRlUokrUD2P7fh2k2FXpfcVibhmaaV6HRP8u_ObZuTXeyNhJq4Gqxb0lqcpe5iRuuf11dDSdW5n3RZ7DeWtg0BQVQ82MjDR8BKdO_N_q3funmN2pQi0LoQ/s320/IMG_0141.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /> Well, I've been super busy lately. Cancer Treatment side effects are driving me to wits end. My nails have been curling under the skin making them painful. Both toenails and fingernails. So many people have treated me like I'm a drug seeker for the past 10 years, including my own PCP. <p></p><p>With my targeted treatments I can only use narcotics, not any NSAIDS. So, I've been breaking away from most social media because it's not real life. And somtimes it makes me sad. So, I'm living my real life through this blog. It's not fake, not sunshine and roses; but exhaustion and painful joints and too many medications. And by the way, I just began palliative care. I'm not giving up. I'm trying to be more comfortable and live my best life.</p><p>My scans have remained stable, so far I've been blessed. And watching Karley graduate is my next milestone. I cannot believe I started this blog when she was 7, and she will be 18 in January.</p><p>I praise God constantly for the time he has given me. Life can change in an instant. Be strong, for He is always with you. So far this year, I've seen the unprecedented conviction of the first hate crime in the state of Georgia, with the conviction of the spineless men behind the death of Ahmaud Arbery.</p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-91006605709757700892021-12-31T17:11:00.001-05:002021-12-31T17:11:28.362-05:00Holiday Grief - The first year. Forever Changed<p>According to an article from Dec. 14, 2021. from the attached link about the psychological effects of losing a parent as a grown child can change you forever. <a href="https://www.fatherly.com/health-science/parent-death-psychological-physical-effects/" target="_blank">Grief and the effect</a></p><p>I am perfectly aware of the circle of life. I know that we all will one day go on to be with the Lord. And there will be no more sorrow or pain. And I know that one day we will see our loved ones again. But does knowing this really make it easier?</p><p>Since I got a lung cancer diagnosis 9 years ago, I've had two people that have been my rocks. My parents have been with me through everything. This is because my life is divided into two parts. Before cancer and after cancer. </p><p>Time after time, month after month, for 9 years I've been losing friends to this disease. At this point, I don't think I can mentally handle involvement with more lung cancer patient relationships. Yet, they are the people that understand so I need them.</p><p>As to my question about knowing the circle of life and having the faith that I have, does it make the death easer? I really thought it would I've lost loved ones throughout these 9 years. And each one has taken a little bit of my heart.</p><p>This year I'm dealing with the unexpected loss of my father. My hero, protector, comforter, and my person. I'm not taking anything away from my mom. She first and foremost has been by my side every single step of the way. Everything I've been through, she has been there.</p><p>In the beginning, my father was too. I remember how painful gamma knife radiation was after they removed the screws from my head without pain relief. I've never screamed in pain. I did that day and I thought my dad was going to jump over the nurses desk and attack them. So I sent my mom, she can be a little more tactful.</p><p>But, my mom and sister both know that I inherited my father's bluntness, quick to anger, but also quick to help anyone in need to the point it puts my own health at risk.</p><p>So, after making plans for his birthday (May 15) on March 27th at around 8:04 p.m., I had no inkling that would be the last time I would speak to him. He sounded so happy and healthy even though I knew he was getting weaker and during covid we had him stop going to my appointments. </p><p>LOOKING BACK</p><p>Every year I've been at my mom's on Christmas and then driven the 5 minutes to my dads to see him. There was no question, it was like clockwork. I would be in Atlanta. But my mom got very ill. She's still battling a bit so prayers for her would be much appreciated.</p><p>Instead, I've been home by myself since Christmas. I hung my dads old stocking under his urn and sat it in view of the Christmas tree. I think Christmas was always our favorite time of year. He would continuously watch "A Christmas Story". I don't know how he didn't have it memorized. He would drive my mom crazy with, "she still loves me, my betroved". </p><p>I believe they came back in each others lives because of my diagnosis. And they never stopped truly loving each other. And finally, my first bit of good news about my tumors shrinking came in December 2014 over the holidays. My dad never took his tree down after that news. He said it would stay up until I beat this.</p><p>The most recent scan I got showed no tumors or bright lights, and my SUV level was at 1.8. Above 2.0 is indicative of cancer. He was supposed to be here for that news. He would've been elated, yet he passed away worrying about me like always. I finally took down his tree and donated it to a 2nd grade class. He would've wanted to still bring love to all of those children. It was ironic that Karley was in that grade when I was diagnosed.</p><p>THE GRIEF MAKES YOU CRAZY WITHOUT SUPPORT</p><p>Psychologists have nailed it when it comes to grief and the stages. It's only as if the stages never end. They make you feel crazy. Every case is different. In my case I've just wanted support. Friends to acknowledge my loss and check on me. But I know it's the holidays and everyone is busy, but a few people I consider dear friends don't understand my need to be surrounded by love right now. </p><p>I know I have the support from my mom who is sick 5 hours away and my sister in San Diego, but they aren't processing it the same way. My mom has been so sick and my sister has two little ones. I remember it being all about Karley in that way too. It would have been a great distraction.</p><p>But shes on vacation with her boyfriend now and next Christmas she will be a senior.]</p><p>So for the first time in my entire life, I am alone for Christmas and New Years. I felt like I had friends that would be supportive. I'm not talk about Amanda and the ones that have always been there. I needed a distraction from today. But I'm not getting one so am about to go back to sleep.</p><p>I suffer already suffer from PTSD which makes the loss harder, and the fact I talked to him the night he died.</p><p>When a parent dies unexpectedly , you tend remain in anger and denial longer, often leading to major depressive disorder or PTSD. And having those already is like a walking bombshell. It increase them.</p><p>And then some of your "friends" make you feel crazy. They haven't suffered this loss yet though so how can they judge the way I'm my processing. In reality, they cant understand and call me petty and dramatic and other many other things. </p><p>But this isn't true, losing a parent so close can make you feel crazy One minute you're happy and the next sad and the next angry. And you can only pray to have the support you need. Especially over the holidays. I did so good until now. Because tomorrow, my dad will have not existed in that year. I feel like I'm leaving him behind. It's an awful feeling. Though a part of me will always be with him and him with me, I can't help but feeling this way. </p><p>So, I'm not celebrating. I'm sleeping. And maybe I'll see him again one last time this year. There are no rules on how to grieve. But having support is so important. When you don't, you feel like things are spiraling out of control and you are helpless.</p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-45694509718476344722021-07-02T11:53:00.000-04:002021-07-02T11:53:02.030-04:00My Dad - The Man I Loved the Most<p><b><u>The Day My World Changed Forever</u></b></p><p>Everyone I know on facebook saw that we lost our dad the night of March 27, 2021. Although the official record declared his date and time of death to be March 28, 2021 at 7 a.m. when the medical examiner called it, I know he left us before midnight. No one can change my mind.</p><p>On the evening of March 27, 2021 at 8:04 pm I spoke with him and texted him at 7:54 pm for the last time. Earlier that week I called Piedmont to schedule my PetScan and blood draw. It was then I realized my father's birthday was on a Thursday. So we were considering later in the month until I saw that. It was perfect. I could go to my scan and then out to dinner with my parents to celebrate my fathers birthday. My parents may have divorced but the grandkids and my illness always brought them together and they truly had a deep unbreakable love and bond for one another.</p><p>I called my dad the evening of the 27th. When he answered, I shouted, "Guess who has a doctors appt on your birthday?" to which he replied, "me!" Both of us could be overly silly. I asked again and he finally got it right with "you!". I told him it was perfect. I could drive up to Atlanta Wednesday and we could go out to eat after my scans. I'll never forget how excited he was. We talked about some miscellaneous things, our conversations could be a bit morbid. I would tell him what I wanted when I died and he would do the same. That night he mentioned to me some things he wanted his granddaughters to have. I just took it as a regular conversation. He was very adamant about it, which was strange. It stuck in my head. I texted him a few hours after we talked, I needed his advice, I needed him, and he didn't reply. I called a few times because I knew he would answer or reply to my text. He always did. He's always worried about me, as has my mom, since I was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer November 27, 2012. He would've answered or replied had he still been with us. But, I thought he would call me in the morning, he's been in a lot of pain.</p><p>So, at 5:04 a.m. the next morning my phone rang and it was my mom. Immediately, a wave of dread came over me. My mom would never call so early unless something was wrong. Through her sobs, she said, "Baby, you need to come home. It's your dad". I asked her if he was gone, and she said yes. She was sitting next to him and did so until they came to retrieve his body. He was still in the living room. His girlfriend had called my mom in a panic. My mom said it just looked like he went to sleep and she kept waiting on him to snore. She sat next to him and talked to him the whole time, about how she tried so hard to stop loving him but never could. She stayed until they carried him away. He never stopped loving her either, but he did that day. Which is why I'm going to add this ominous song which is the one that was playing when I cranked his car for the first time. It was the last song he listened to.</p><p>I grabbed clothes and threw them in a bag. It took my maybe 15 minutes to pack, funeral dress included, and I was on the road. My thoughts were everywhere. How could he die? We just made birthday plans and he was so excited. He wasn't in pain, he hadn't taken any pain pills. He was happy.</p><p>I made it to Atlanta in record timing and immediately went to my moms. My sister was driving down with my nieces from Quantico, VA where her husband, Patrick, a marine was going to join us the next day.</p><p>A lot of what happened after was a blur. My mom, sister, and I each had our own ways of handling this. I became numb to a point of sporadic crying when alone, whereas my sister was so emotional and my mom somewhere in-between. I think she was in shock. My sister and I had never experienced such a loss and before long were at each others throats. I look back now and regret that happened, but all of this brought us closer together than we have ever been. She did the planning, I had a fractured fibula. </p><p>My mom wanted to make sure he had a military funeral and between my sister and brother in law and his local American Legions, they made it happen She did an amazing job. I wrote the obituary and sifted through pictures for a slideshow. It took me 10 times the amount it should've in order to do anything.</p><p>My cousin, John Allen Mixon, came down and began helping my sister and me. I still can't find my favorite picture, I was about 10 and dancing on his toes at my aunt and uncles wedding. I can still see it in my head so maybe I'll sketch it before time erases it.</p><p><b><u>Who was John Falton Mixon?</u></b></p><p>My dad was the most interesting person I've ever known. Sometimes I would listen to his stories and think, "no way", but he never wavered when he told them. Always the same way. He wasn't lying. The stories he would tell and the sayings he would use, he seemed larger than life. All of my friends knew and loved him. After being honorably discharged from the Navy, he went on to be a red coat at Delta Airlines for 28 years. My mother worked for Eastern Airlines. The people that would request him to escort them out of the terminals were amazing. One example was John Gotti. Gotti only wanted my dad and they became acquaintances throughout the years. </p><p>He loved Johnny Cash, Frank Sinatra, George Jones and Elvis so much. We shared the love of Elvis's Blue Christmas when I was little. He told my mother at the age of 26 and me at the age of 74, "when I die, I want the song 'My Way' played. That was his song and that is the way he lived and died. His way. </p><p>I bought him a vinyl record player for his birthday. It now sits in my house as I listen to the old vinyl's of his favorites. One of my favorite Elvis is "Suspicious Minds". My father didn't trust many people. If he trusted you, you were good. He could tell in 5 minutes if someone was a "snake in the grass" or a good person.</p><p>A few of his sayings, "my my how the worm has turned" when something changed in his favor. When asking how he was feeling, his responses were, "hanging in there like a loose tooth", "if I felt any better I would have to be twins", "with my hands". Regardless of how much pain he was in, the man would always make you laugh. The life of the party. I can't even think of all the sayings right now. Always a smile on his face.</p><p>The first song I played on the record player was, "you'll never walk alone", which I didn't notice, just put on some Elvis, but found a video of us dancing at my wedding on his phone. That was our dance. It was perfect for me to hear at that point.</p><p><u><b>Younger Years</b></u></p><p>He shot a man in Florida trying to steal his car. He fought it and got off. His life wasnโt in danger He just didnโt want his car stolen ๐คทโโ๏ธ. He always carried "roscoe", his side piece. He carried it everywhere, almost going into the airport with it when I dropped him off. Roscoe belongs to Roy the Boy now if we can get our hands on it. That gun never left my dad and was always on the coffee table. We've been unable to find it.</p><p>He fought a midget intoxicated and was arrested for fighting a minor, although the midget got the better of him. A funny story I will share one day. He was in the Navy at the time and had a little too much to drink. He was recognized by another Delta employee 20 years later who had been in the same courtroom on the same day.</p><p>He had a temper (sometimes) and some people were frightened of him. My mom tells me I got his temper.... But the things he did were always to protect his family, friends, neighbors and country. There wasn't a thing he wouldn't do for us. He always wore a sportscoat and an American Flag pin. He always proudly flew his American Flag. If there ever was a patriot, it was him. </p><p>It was funny the things he kept from his younger years. There was one man that lived at the end of our cul-de-sac, my father despised him. I honestly think he ran background checks on everyone. Anyway, I loved basketball when I was younger. He put up a basketball hoop at the end of the road. I would love to go down there and play. My dad soon put a stop to that and had him take it down. For some reason this prompted a visit from the FBI (not the first). My dad apparently threatened him, my sister and I know why now. He was fired from teaching because he was in love with a 16 year old student and even told her parents he was! We read the transcripts my dad kept, not knowing how he got them. Apparently the guy was also in witness protection so had to be relocated because of my father's threats. </p><p>My sister and I are both sleuths like my father, just warning you this man is now the dean of a local Georgia University, I'll refrain from telling which one. I guess his past got buried.</p><p>He was also considered the protector, not only of his family, but of the neighborhood. Not many men would sit on their roofs for hours at a time dressed in disguise to watch out for the neighborhood hoodlums that destroyed our carved pumpkins. But when he caught them, he chased them into their house. He made these kids carve new pumpkins for the entire street. Those kids father even gave my dad their blessing.</p><p><b><u>And Now the Time Has Come</u></b></p><p>He outlived all of his siblings and most of his friends. He was down because he began feeling alone but always lived for his children and grandchildren. We were his life and there is nothing he wouldn't do for us. I was afraid I would pass before him and my mother. This weighed on me, it wasn't the natural order of things. We had a long talk several months before. I asked why he kept carrying on in so much pain and didn't just go be with the Lord. He responded, "because I have to watch out for you". I told him it was okay and that I would be okay. Some think that's selfish, but I could no longer see him in so much pain all of the time.</p><p>Now, I worry about my mom. They had each other when Brook and I moved away. And they took care of each other. She's alone up there now. Had I had the money, I would've bought my sister out of my dad's house and lived there. But Karley still has 2 years of school.</p><p>We just had another celebration of life for him at his favorite bar on his birthday. Although he didnโt drink, he loved the employees and locals and its a major hangout for delta employees. He also loved his American Legion and would always proudly drag my sister and I around introducing us to everyone.</p><p>It's taken me a long time to write this, and I still don't feel as I've done him justice. He's the man I loved most in my life and we had such a bond. My house is slowly becoming a shrine to him, lol. I even bought him a father's day gift I keep next to his urn. It's a 1929 World War 1 Navy hat. I hang out at the antique store way too much. </p><p>There was so much more to my father. Please feel free to share any stories on this post on fb, twitter, wherever. He would've loved the attention. </p><p>So, it's taken me a long time for acceptance to set in, I'm still sad but I'm not angry or in denial or anything like that anymore. I feel his presence with me. </p><p>My life has been a blur since March 28th. I couldn't even tell you what happened yesterday. I thought my experience with my friends who died of lung cancer over the past eight years could somehow prepare me, but nothing can prepare you for the loss of a genuine caring parent. I think God my mom is still here. And for all the parents out there who have loss children, I pray for the pain. I don't know how you do it, but GOD BLESS YOU. Anyway, I'll leave you with a bunch of photos and now will start blogging again. I was in too much pain to do so until now. Sorry for the novel.</p><p>But rest assured, he did it his way. He passed peacefully on his couch with his dog by his side. He went to sleep. His heart gave out. He always predicted he would do it his way....he did. Frank Sinatra nailed it.</p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRq4mKLw_J-BvZ9a8JiV-nKe1u6UTJiBmQziwPdyfVeJ1MXlNYwEla3lIWdXlaM7rn11Kjb4uLwCjOMWfcIQkhBZG0W09bndDAG4T_bIwLBuM38KycPdZQabwrfvgpBAK7d5k6MH_qVjPv/s640/IMG_4866.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="480" data-original-width="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRq4mKLw_J-BvZ9a8JiV-nKe1u6UTJiBmQziwPdyfVeJ1MXlNYwEla3lIWdXlaM7rn11Kjb4uLwCjOMWfcIQkhBZG0W09bndDAG4T_bIwLBuM38KycPdZQabwrfvgpBAK7d5k6MH_qVjPv/s320/IMG_4866.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Click links below to watch a tribute and musical video - His forever song and last song in his car.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://youtu.be/Y8Jp68dxcrw" target="_blank">Tribute to "Johnny"</a><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://youtu.be/qQzdAsjWGPg" target="_blank">My Way - Frank Sinatra</a><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">The last song he played in his car. I like the Alan Jackson version sung at George Jones Funeral (so I added that one) He sung it with such conviction. Love it.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://youtu.be/9EEB9Qyiu4g" target="_blank">He Stopped Loving her today</a><br /></div><br /><div><br /></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-17064323290849234032021-01-22T12:02:00.004-05:002021-01-22T12:19:52.305-05:00Catch up - And Scan results<p>I have seriously been neglecting my poor blog. Between learning to walk again and the holidays, it's been non stop. So....this is going to be a quick catch up.</p><p>I learned to walk again and by my birthday (Halloween), I was dressed in costume and house decorated so I could hand out to trick or treaters. I never do this because I've always worked or had Karley. But after my stroke, I felt like I had a new lease on life. (Pic overload below)</p><p>I met someone I've been seeing since October. He's pretty awesome and helped me out tremendously along with my mom in my stroke recovery. I'm happy to say that I've regained all of walking skills and have totally recovered. It didn't come without falls. But it's going to take more to take out this cockroach DNA. (recovering pic below)</p><p>On 11/27/20 I celebrated my 8 year Cancerversary by eating pudding for breakfast and laying around all day. 2020 was a dumpster fire. But my cockroach DNA is still thriving. There are few reasons why and I'll mention them throughout. </p><p>First, as soon as Halloween was over I put up Christmas decorations. That's right. November 1st. My daughter just looked at me like I was crazy, as did her father. It always drove him nuts when I decorated early. Even Paul, the new guy I'm dating, probably thought I was a little crazy. But at least my crazy didn't scare him off. My only thought process was "I'll decorate for Christmas, that'll make everything better". Yeah....it didn't. Don't get me wrong, I loved the lights at Jekyll and our cozy little home all decorated, and always love celebrating Christ, but things were still bad.</p><p>So, I began selling all of my furniture and replacing it. I've gotten so good at thrift shopping I actually made a profit! If you saw my house before Thanksgiving of last year, it has TOTALLY changed. I started with the couch. I found a great one that didn't smell like cat urine at a thrift store. The owner was amazing and walked around to show me all of the couches on facetime since I didn't want to risk it. So, shout out to "Junk for your Trunk" thrift store in Brunswick! And this is how my transformation began.</p><p>I love the Holderness family. So when I watched the video of the things she's done, I felt like we were related. My daughter has a new "vintage" bedroom suite with a queen bed now. Our spare room is no longer an art room but an actual spare room with a full bed. Any of my friends wanting to visit this summer, lets get vaccinated and covid tested and come stay with me for free! The beach is a whole 4 miles from my house. After redoing every room besides the kitchen of my house, I decided to declutter. I sold so much furniture and so many electronics. I currently have 5 full bags of clothes for a yard sale. And the longer I stay home..the more decluttering will come. It's like a want a new home and can't have one so decided to redo mine. And I bought an old wii with some "Just Dance" games. Great exercise after a stroke. I'm back at 100% physically. Mentally...it's never been 100%. I've included the video from the holderness family below. It's the one where Kim is my spirit animal. I never realized until I saw it that I wasn't the only one going absolutely crazy. And NYE didn't put that dumpster fire out. It just kept burning.</p><p>I tried to stay away from the news. I have enough on my plate. And they say "ignorance is bliss". There have been no truer words ever spoken.</p><p>Tuesday, my daughter took her driving test. She is now a legal driver, with her own car. My extended family helped me tremendously. I'll have two small car payments for a while and quite a few medical bills. But, I can only pay what I can pay. I would've much rather been on a vacation for the price I'm paying back to the hospital for the stroke. Could've toured Europe!</p><p>I feel so blessed that not only did I get to see my daughter pass her driving test, but I got to see her get in her car and smile excitedly and wave goodbye to me. Of course I cried. But they were tears of joy. I never thought I would see this day much less ride with her during it. I am just praising God tremendously. My life isn't perfect. It's a disaster. But I know what's important and material possessions are not. The love for my daughter cannot be described. It's everlasting, as is my love for Christ.</p><p>Lung cancer is severely underfunded. So, a few members of our Lung Cancer Community are working on "The White Ribbon Project". Its up to us to get the funding and make others aware. I've attached a few of the pics we did. Heidi and Pierre made this ribbon and so many more to send across the country. Mine now resides in the cancer institute at Piedmont Hospital.</p><p>And finally, I'll wrap this up and promise to get back to posting more. My scans yesterday showed no evidence of active cancer. Just the same two dormant tumors. We still have to find out why I'm having strokes, but the news to my family, friends, and myself couldn't have come at a better time. It's like we are beginning to slowly awake from this crazy year. Baby steps of course.</p><p>Thank you all for your continuous prayers. Please pray for my dad, his friends, and so many of my friends. Survivors guilt has really done a number on me mentally this year. But, I know I need to keep going. Showing my daughter to always pray and don't give up, even if you're told no the first time. Keep trying. Sometimes it pays off and God answers those prayers.</p><p>Thank you all for following my journey through this crazy thing called life. You've all seen my family change and get older and that sweet 7 year old when I was diagnosed is driving now. It's incredible. God has a plan for us all. Don't doubt that, it could lead you down a very dark path. I'm prepared to handle what comes my way. I have faith that He sees the big picture and everything happens for a reason.</p><p>God bless you all and I'll write more in a couple of weeks. Mucho shorter next time!</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6-CXREMXrTcBRA5-wGE6idMIniUPF9lnwl1BXJrlssUgTmYQnT6gm2GKOw59vC3w-z1e_zqECGWvvdiEJ8WJAlcBbso3meilFWW8GOn6ZyX4FqBCd6bHMysuUHa7XZzXhu7PnsJ4RrdyE/s640/IMG_2127.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="635" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6-CXREMXrTcBRA5-wGE6idMIniUPF9lnwl1BXJrlssUgTmYQnT6gm2GKOw59vC3w-z1e_zqECGWvvdiEJ8WJAlcBbso3meilFWW8GOn6ZyX4FqBCd6bHMysuUHa7XZzXhu7PnsJ4RrdyE/s320/IMG_2127.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Halloween - Up and walking (mostly) and decorations out</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;">of course this is where they would send me for a new neurologist</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">We miss you Kelly Kayuk</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQEGWfOuDAdYLuCdmBVSwfJNMQHcXs6t2ECPQ0BMmWOnxSHkjtqOw8OZLJVxISswtYliHtTWHqf9Dneqgxywz1g1IQNGH_mgXAdLqhYx9IF4GwXm-cmN-ZYP4eyKEcV1amjHuI5Uekp89O/s640/IMG_1086.JPG" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="640" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQEGWfOuDAdYLuCdmBVSwfJNMQHcXs6t2ECPQ0BMmWOnxSHkjtqOw8OZLJVxISswtYliHtTWHqf9Dneqgxywz1g1IQNGH_mgXAdLqhYx9IF4GwXm-cmN-ZYP4eyKEcV1amjHuI5Uekp89O/s320/IMG_1086.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Indeed it is the only thing that ever has" - Margaret Mead</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Scans Yesterday</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4cwVW6xFlfj4xvHJYM3enPG7eTrYOOhrqGiC1I69X4TyrwT7K6GIjgakLeRQ2QqTO7sdeGbbmnHcFXIFwZFWxEFe85JjqNhyphenhyphenE2EJ_qNQq1ec7P9AuOolrn3q0sIhaBZhaVtdPLLtc18tx/s2048/IMG_2187+%25281%2529.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4cwVW6xFlfj4xvHJYM3enPG7eTrYOOhrqGiC1I69X4TyrwT7K6GIjgakLeRQ2QqTO7sdeGbbmnHcFXIFwZFWxEFe85JjqNhyphenhyphenE2EJ_qNQq1ec7P9AuOolrn3q0sIhaBZhaVtdPLLtc18tx/s320/IMG_2187+%25281%2529.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2-YyvyukM_gAw5fgHLwtwRabCEiBvCUO1_5QW9gMLXzufQhwxm7q2lhBQP6u7cKGLMqM5sWhOc8bMrnYfF6E8AN2bVpX8jjWt03KotOwNnJPzWKROpiVMM5Win6MjjhyAbXtPHYmOlmnH/s2048/IMG_2192.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="2044" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2-YyvyukM_gAw5fgHLwtwRabCEiBvCUO1_5QW9gMLXzufQhwxm7q2lhBQP6u7cKGLMqM5sWhOc8bMrnYfF6E8AN2bVpX8jjWt03KotOwNnJPzWKROpiVMM5Win6MjjhyAbXtPHYmOlmnH/s320/IMG_2192.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">My favorite Oncologist/Doctor ever! Dr. William Jonas - He's been with me since Day 1</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Karley turned 16 and is driving!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihDN2a0UTJoEukZWs2iP5GU2XNePyGPwj6sZ7a_yrGD-NiojgJokzNRACn2JTOIeotr6dhXCktJpYdnVsgxzWU4Cb87ecbaSAwZuGxRe6CjBCmmO4onY_k-qSRK3ioexl13qQP7mLdB-zD/s2048/IMG_2164.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihDN2a0UTJoEukZWs2iP5GU2XNePyGPwj6sZ7a_yrGD-NiojgJokzNRACn2JTOIeotr6dhXCktJpYdnVsgxzWU4Cb87ecbaSAwZuGxRe6CjBCmmO4onY_k-qSRK3ioexl13qQP7mLdB-zD/s320/IMG_2164.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQumCHgvREveuG_Fa09GgcUT5jyr-32fjuGKgctgP7e8kfortnxomBszuBmyywsMWQrt8ocYlnWKQ7SJlxr9j_GfTgbkbaDynxpRGOE2XvS5S-5th0QCaS9hkOEvMh7g5I-yNpJf2ZkdpW/s2048/IMG_2167+%25281%2529.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQumCHgvREveuG_Fa09GgcUT5jyr-32fjuGKgctgP7e8kfortnxomBszuBmyywsMWQrt8ocYlnWKQ7SJlxr9j_GfTgbkbaDynxpRGOE2XvS5S-5th0QCaS9hkOEvMh7g5I-yNpJf2ZkdpW/s320/IMG_2167+%25281%2529.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVLkSawZmpXXNjbMgBHRPD0OF1EfdRFPFaxU9yU2aw_jgw7oM_p60clciIn7Ruw-QZfxi0YumfdHZELWU4dPw-2ZX3RbkjEsPx1AU4K9_iJHPbcPpHUdR74f8a_B588DLnliwCq7zi3c1y/s640/IMG_1847.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="626" data-original-width="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVLkSawZmpXXNjbMgBHRPD0OF1EfdRFPFaxU9yU2aw_jgw7oM_p60clciIn7Ruw-QZfxi0YumfdHZELWU4dPw-2ZX3RbkjEsPx1AU4K9_iJHPbcPpHUdR74f8a_B588DLnliwCq7zi3c1y/s320/IMG_1847.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBVMqB9Mdud5cp1b9mhJDscIrcE45LUYv5jEybp5DDjvCzjaIGoNDPMxkSRX-3CXIJwIXo2_BfHWRn1AN9jMI_6XDs9qfmEQNoiDHltcaBNKDYpG8CnBIxSXogcsgu0VDU6LkjxMKnOvsb/s362/IMG_1858.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="362" data-original-width="219" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBVMqB9Mdud5cp1b9mhJDscIrcE45LUYv5jEybp5DDjvCzjaIGoNDPMxkSRX-3CXIJwIXo2_BfHWRn1AN9jMI_6XDs9qfmEQNoiDHltcaBNKDYpG8CnBIxSXogcsgu0VDU6LkjxMKnOvsb/s320/IMG_1858.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijfi_Fr2WgqNbilhmxD4r41OiCCrgSSBDTtstQt1zJwMBA0rb0_wMQ25qDjPoD-ya7bBzYpteT4FViaFx49GFb8NLEq7ch7T1zjgoQcTfYMfYFNaIldmCc0gXS89j2NYs7kYQBoq6KHIuv/s640/IMG_1321.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="571" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijfi_Fr2WgqNbilhmxD4r41OiCCrgSSBDTtstQt1zJwMBA0rb0_wMQ25qDjPoD-ya7bBzYpteT4FViaFx49GFb8NLEq7ch7T1zjgoQcTfYMfYFNaIldmCc0gXS89j2NYs7kYQBoq6KHIuv/s320/IMG_1321.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I love these girls all grew up together and are still so close. Mine is the second tallest in the back.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://youtu.be/TUrwXS3VP5Q" target="_blank">My spirit animal</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Click above for the video I was referring too. The Holderness Family on YouTube. 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Maybe it can help someone in the future that may have one. </p><p>There are different types of strokes. I had an acute stroke, which means blood flow temporarily stopped in part of my brain, the front right part.</p><p>I had been having headaches for days and was overall fatigued. I couldn't stand the light and kept forgetting things. I would get Karley up and go back to bed. I had so much to do, but I didn't want to even paint for fun. I felt lightheaded and nothing was helping the headaches.</p><p>My mother used to get migraines beginning at my age, so I assumed it was something like that. On Thursday Sept. 24th I woke up feeling amazing. My headaches and symptoms were gone. I decided to put some furniture together to organize my office. </p><p>Super bad idea. I kept getting confused. It's like I could not comprehend the directions. I kept putting pieces in the wrong spot and logically could not think. It was a simple 12 unit cubicle organizer. I've always put furniture like that together, even when I was dating someone. My entire life, since I could talk, I've always said, "Ill do it myself". I was a so little and talking and my mom would try to help me and I wouldn't let her, saying "I'll do it myself. I've felt like I could do things anyone could do. And I probably could have had the blood flow just not stopped in part of my brain.<br /></p><p>It's an odd sensation. I was sitting down (thank God). I was suddenly dizzy and flopped down on my back. I was still sitting with my legs tucked in but very soon realized that I couldn't move my left side and was having trouble with my right.</p><p>I knew I was having a stroke. I had siri to the rescue again. She called Karley's dad who immediately dropped everything he was doing to come get me. Why didn't I call 911? I didn't want to go to our local hospital. This one was serious and many have died from strokes there.</p><p>When John arrived, I was still on the ground. He grabbed my pill bag and I immediately took 4 low dose aspirin and a blood thinner. I did get in trouble for taking that, had I been having a hemorrhagic stroke, it could have killed me. Considering it was going to take us almost 2 hours to get to Jacksonville and help, I was willing to take those odds.</p><p>Because I couldn't walk or feel the left side of my body, John had to carry me to his truck. He was panicking like I was in labor again. I felt so bad. Once we were on our way to Baptist Memorial in Jacksonville, I kept crying telling him I was sorry about fighting over Karley and he was a great dad and could do it on his own. I really thought I wasn't going to make it. I told him to tell Karley how much I love her. He kept saying, "hang on, you're not going anywhere". He drove like a nascar driver to get me there.</p><p>Upon arrival he opened my door and was carrying me in yelling to anyone that would listen that I was having a stroke. I was immediately whisked away from his arms and on to a stretcher. I told him not to stay and go home to Karley. </p><p>They do not play when they think you're having a stroke. I can't begin to remember all of the tests I went through but they were non stop. This all happened at 4:50 pm and by 9 p.m. they were sure I wasn't still having the stroke and I was in a room. Starving because I hadn't eaten all day.</p><p>Let me tell you, they do a full drug test on you too. I had my adderall and xanax in my system. So don't do drugs if you are prone to having a stroke! How about not doing drugs period...</p><p>I tried to tell them they would find all the cocaine in my system and they laughed and said they already looked and it was clean. Ruined it for me.</p><p>Let me tell you, I cannot use a bed pan or a diaper. My lady parts refuse. I had to urinate so bad that when I got in the room, they had to do a forced catherization. I had a liter of urine in there. Yes, a liter. the nurses were amazed. My body refuses anything but the toilet or a catheter. </p><p>I continued to have tests for about 5 days. They were able to tell where the stroke occurred but are not ruling out brain mets. So I have a repeat MRI 6 weeks after the original and they should be able to tell then.</p><p>As most of you know, I had several mini strokes last October. So we are going to UNF Shands neurology to see if they can find out why this is happening.</p><p>I've slowly but surly regained feeling on the left side. My balance is off but I can walk without a walker now slowly. PT is amazing an taught me so much. Basically how to get my brain to recognize signals again. </p><p>I go for another assessment today to see where I stand. And I am standing and slowly walking. It's amazing how our bodies can fix themselves if you work at it. </p><p>I'm home now doing outpatient rehab. Let me know if you have any questions I can answer. I'm so sorry I left everyone hanging. All I wanted to do was sleep. My prognosis is good. Just building up my strength an balance. I praise God for this. And I'm really beginning to think He gave me part cockroach DNA.</p><p>Anyway, life is short. Just another reminder. 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I've been on twitter today. I admitted that I have always voted Republican but don't know anymore. Although, I look back and disagree with really some things on both sides. A lot of things actually. So, I've decided to call myself a humanitarian instead of affiliate with any parties. I will vote for who makes the most sense. There is something I want to point out.</div>
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I am a white woman. White privileged and all except I have Stage 4 Lung Cancer that I can barely keep up with, much less some of the BLM movements going on. I want to help. What was done to George Floyd was awful, as so many others have been treated. I cried. I wanted to help. </div>
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But, racism is a two way street. I was on twitter asking how to help, what I could do, and generally trying to let people understand that just because I've voted Republican in no way means I am for the cop in Minnesota or the guys in Brunswick. It was all due to a meme that was posted that showed that cop as the republican and the cop watching a democrat. </div>
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So, I gave up and called myself a humanitarian. This was after I was asked if I even went to school (they called me "bruh"). I was told "every person saying 'fuck color and gender' is just trying to convince US their political party is the one for the people". I don't like the words "they" and "us". We need words like we. I guess I'm just naive.</div>
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I was told "don't be a sheep" after asking for suggested websites. When I said I empathize I get a response, "empathize like your president who mocks the handicapped and puts babies behind bars". I was told "good luck white girl trying to help out black folks". And then a whole twitter war started about whether Lincoln was a Republican or democrat. There was a lot more and personnel attacks. </div>
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I mean wow. I'm just trying to help people understand it is a two way street. I was kind to every person no matter how much I was insulted. Which for me is very hard. I know not all people like the ones on social medial, but how would any of that make me want to help? I even said, "I am a white woman so do not fully understand but empathize". </div>
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So, now I need a nap and blocked a couple of people. There were some very helpful people in there, like sunny. But it takes conversation and dialogue, not personnel attacks, to overcome these things. Don't try and educate with "you're stupid". What good does that do? Nothing. </div>
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I'm raising my child that everyone is created equal. Maybe if everyone did that, our next generation may look a whole lot different. Right now we should be fighting the coronavirus. Not spreading it. And riots and looting are only ruining the communities from which protesters came. </div>
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I saw some great suggestions on there too. Anyway, I stepped away. I just want us all to be one nation, under God. Not a nation at the edge of collapse because of the economics and damages. </div>
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Just know that we are with everyone, from George Floyd to the Police officer shot in the head for no reason. Everyone should be treated equal. That was God's intent. Love thy neighbor. And please pray for Debbie Pouncey McGettigan and her family for comfort.</div>
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Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-46426591362450625612020-05-08T15:37:00.002-04:002020-05-08T15:37:10.537-04:00"United we stand, divided we fall' - AesopFor 6 years now, Team Draft has been giving us ( the Lung Cancer Community) an outlet to share our research concerns to the world. Anyone who has looked at the lung cancer research funding KNOWS how underfunded we are. So, how do we fix this? How do we get the research we need?<br /><br />I know you may be thinking, "I'm just one person, does it really matter if I advocate?" Well, the answer is absolutely it matters. Let me give you an example.<br /><br />My daughter, Karley, is very passionate and loves volleyball. But, if she's the only one to show up to the game (against the opposing team) full of other students, will she win? No. If the other players show up and don't try, will the(y) win? No. How do they get funding for athletic gear, uniforms, etc? They fund-raise, ask for big sponsorships, and challenge different companies to (support) put the most in their team. They don't do it alone. My family and friends help her raise that much needed funding. (If they want to win, they have to be a committed Team on the court and off the court.)<br /><br />So, in order to be part of (a successful) the team, you have to want it. Do you want to live, and make a difference for future generations?<br /><br />Chris Draft, former NFL player and co-founder of Team Draft, began November 27, 2011 when he and his wife, Keasha Rutledge Draft, were married in Atlanta, GA Keasha was diagnosed with Stage IV lung cancer in December 2010. <br /><br />Team Draft was founded by former NFL linebacker and internationally-recognized health advocate, Chris Draft, and his late wife, Keasha, on November 27, 2011โtheir wedding day. At the time, Keasha, a never-smoker, was battling Stage IV Lung Cancer after being diagnosed with the disease in December 2010. Despite the diagnosis and knowing the long odds they faced, Chris and Keasha decided to fight back, and standing side-by-side, they launched Team Draft at their wedding. Unfortunately, Keasha died one month later.<br /><br />With an introduction from the NFL Commissioner Roger Goodell, Chris visited American Cancer Society in April 2011)went across the street to the American Cancer Society and asked if there was something they could do to help with funding lung cancer. They asked what the American Cancer Society does for lung cancer awareness month in November. The ACS replied that she could be part of the great american smokeout but that's all they did for lung cancer awareness month. They kindly declined and Keasha passed away about a month after their wedding, leaving Chris to carry on his advocacy.<br /><br />Had the ACS taken Keasha seriously and really advocated and spoken up, that lung cancer matters, imagine what it would look like today? But they didn't. So it's up to US to keep going, fighting, raising awareness and letting others know that our lives matter!<br /><br />THE OUTLET<br /><br />The outlet Team Draft has given each year to really make an impression on someone is the (Lung Cancer Survivors) Super Bowl Challenge. But that may not happen this year due to the NFL and pandemic, but also, we don't have the Team. I have so many people ask how they can advocate. Raise awareness. Read about the superbowl challenge on Team Draft's website. I went the first year and the NFL and their wives totally embraced me. I sat with Andy Dalton as I told him my story. He put his phone down and listened. Then he retweeted Lung Cancer Matters. Tim Tebow, who always does so much for childhood cancer, he stopped signing autographs to listen to my story.<br /><br />My point is, we have this opportunity through Team Draft to make a difference in Lung Cancer research and awareness. Unless we have at least 32 people participating, we won't be doing it this year. (That and COV-ID19 maybe). We need this to be a tradition. We need your family and friends talking about the Team and what they can do to help us LIVE!<br /><br />Being cooped up in the house, I started painting. I want to do a silent auction and dedicate the funds raised to lung cancer research (less overhead). And all the research centers can say Lung Cancer Matters, but they need to show it. It's up to US to challenge them. To inspire them. Take a look at the past winners. They've gone on to be huge advocates in the Lung Cancer Community. But we need more. We all know the underfunding and lack of awareness. It's OUR time to stand up and make these cancer research centers see US. To recognize US. You can fund raise (which is vert fun-unlimited possibilities), blog, write and call your senators. But most importantly, you can join our Team. We can all be on the same page on how we are going to win the game! If we don't, we will be on the same path of under funding and poor survival. We are finally living longer. Let's use that to our advantage! To learn more, go to Team Draft's website or message me and I can get you to the right place. <br /><br />We all want to Live, for our families and friends. It's time to take a stand. Are you going to be part of the Team or just a spectator?<div>
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<br />Since its founding, Team Draft has been dedicated to using its unique platform to raise lung cancer awareness and research funding through its Campaign To Change The Face Of Lung Cancer. And the centerpiece of that Campaign is Team Draftโs annual Lung Cancer Survivorsโ Super Bowl Challenge. As Draft explains, โthe Super Bowl Challenge gives us a unique opportunity to use the overwhelming media coverage surrounding the Super Bowl to raise lung cancer awareness on an international level.โ<br /><br />โWith the game as a backdrop,โ says Draft, โwe give our survivor-advocates a world-wide platform to share their stories, which we can then use to weave a broader narrative about the state of lung cancer and the hope that now exists for those battling the disease.โ And Team Draftโs efforts are paying off. โThe Challenge achieves some amazing things in terms of public awareness and changing perceptions about lung cancer,โ says Dr. Ross Camidge, Director of Thoracic Oncology at Colorado University Cancer Center.<br /><br />In addition to raising critical public awareness, the Super Bowl Challenge also raises funds for lung cancer organizations and treatment centers across North America. And because Team Draftโs National Campaign has always been about โweโ and not โme,โ just as Keasha intended, participating survivor-advocates who raise more than $5,000 during the Super Bowl Challenge may commit 90% of the funds they raise to a lung cancer organization or cancer center of their choice with the remaining 10% going to support Team Draft and its mission. Of this aspect of the Super Bowl Challenge, Dr. Camidge says, โyou need somebody working on the national level. You need somebody working on the local level. Everybody wins.โ <br /><br />As Draft points out, โanybody can get lung cancer.โ โThe disease doesnโt care where you live, but your zip code often determines the quality of care you receive,โ he explains. โIn football, we understand the importance of the home field advantage. By allowing survivors to direct where funds go, weโre giving people the opportunity to fight for better cancer treatment in their communitiesโto give themselves and their neighbors the home field advantage,โ he says. <br /><br />โIt takes a team to tackle cancer, and thanks to committed survivor-advocates like Angie, Lisa, Christie, Kathy, Sandy, and all those who are participating in the Super Bowl Challenge, we are building a championship team,โ Draft says. โKeashaโs legacy of hope lives on through that team and we are grateful to all those who have contributed and continue to contribute to lung cancer awareness, research, treatment and patient advocacy efforts.โ<br /><br />Team Draft hopes to have survivor-advocates from all 32 NFL cities participate in the Super Bowl Challenge, the ultimate goal is for all NCI designated cancer centers and lung cancer organizationsโregardless of locationโto identify and support a survivor-advocate in the Challenge every year. Team Draft is challenging lung cancer survivors and their supporters to help meet that goal by choosing to fight for their communities by joining the Super Bowl Challenge.<br /><br />โWe know the key to winning this fight is for everybody in the lung cancer community to support one another,โ says Draft, adding that โthe only way a community or an organization loses is if nobody stands up.โ <br /><br /><br />About Team Draft<br /><br />Team Draft, an initiative of the Chris Draft Family Foundation, is dedicated to raising lung cancer awareness and increasing badly needed research funding by shattering the misconception that lung cancer is a โsmokerโs disease.โ The fact is, anybody can get lung cancer. Yet, despite the fact that between 20,000 and 30,000 people who have never smokedโincluding Keashaโare diagnosed with lung cancer in the United States each year, the smoking stigma negatively impacts lung cancer research funding, which pales in comparison to funding for other major cancers and diseases. Team Draft is out to change all that. โIf we can take away the stigma that says you have to be a smoker to get lung cancer, we have a real chance to educate people about the true nature of the disease,โ explains Draft.<br /><br />To learn more about Team Draft, share your story, or make a donation, please visit www.teamdraft.org.<br /><br />Chris Draft<br /><br />Founder, President, and CEO </div>
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Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-60426049560112738402020-03-19T16:35:00.002-04:002020-03-19T16:43:32.912-04:00The Comical PandemicOk people, I am already running low on xanax due to some of the inconsiderate and disrespectful people living and vacationing here. Don't get me wrong. A lot more people are taking it seriously, but a lot just don't care. There is nothing COMICAL about this pandemic. Pick up a history book comedians.<br />
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Well, guess what. This virus is starting to hit people 20 and up. So those of you not caring about the rest of us....we will be inside when you get sick. In 6 hours the number of cases in the US rose by 2,000. And that's just for the ones tested. I can't imagine what it will be like a week or two from now. Are we in competition with Italy and China?<br />
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Those who think this is a joke or overrated, wait until you have a loved one die. It will happen. We haven't even begun to see the full impact of this virus. But, it's a free country so live it up! I have no right to tell you what to do. You can't fix stupid.<br />
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Their are a variety of ways to pay for things to those who have lost jobs. If you catch your local nightly news or just google, you can find out how. I'm tired of arguing with some of you, just gonna sit back and let it play out.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-70161688440188553582020-02-03T13:52:00.002-05:002020-02-21T12:40:13.650-05:003 Giants lostI've been in a slump lately. My cancer returned over the summer, I had two strokes in October, and my December scans were not completely clear. So, I guess you could say, last summer woke me up again to my own immortality. I have Stage 4 lung cancer and there's not a thing I can do about it.<br />
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I remained in this slump throughout the new year and now it's gotten worse. I'm desperately trying to pull myself out, but I find myself crying all of the time, especially this past week. Our lung cancer community lost 3 of our long term brothers and sisters. These were people so many looked up to as sign for hope. I don't remember a time that I've had cancer when these people weren't there.<br />
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January 28th, we lost Jennifer Toth. Jennifer was a pure badass. She didn't put up with anything from anyone. And if you were her loyal friend, she was that in return. If she wanted to say something about you, she said it to you instead. She was so funny too. Some of the conversations we used to have would probably keep you from your lunch, but it was nice to have someone to be so honest with. She did get to see her grandchildren and I know how important that was to her. She was our lung cancer sister. She beat the statistics, as did everyone I'll be writing about. Maybe that's what scares me so much.<br />
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February 1st, we lost Superman, aka Don Stranathan. I never, in a million years, thought that we would lose him. He never stopped smiling. His motivation and encouragement enveloped you. Don LIVED life until the very end. Days before he passed, he posted a pic of himself smiling through his treatment. He smiled through every treatment. He was, and always will be, superman to me. If you had a question, he was there. He walked with God daily and I'm sure he knew things would get better one day. And they did, he's free. The man who was always there will never be forgotten. His will to live despite all other circumstances was amazing. I want to be that positive. I want to pull myself out of this.<br />
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February 2nd, we lost Bobbi Johnson Filipiak aka Bobbi Jo. I met Bobbi Jo when she was newly diagnosed. In my opinion it took them way to long to do genetic testing on her. She could've started with a targeted therapy. These hospitals need to be held accountable for their lack of testing. I don't know how to do it, but I promise you, when I pull myself out, I will be making noise for this to happen. Accountability.<br />
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Bobbi Jo left behind her husband and sweet young daughter. She didn't want to leave them, no one does. But God had other plans for these 3 angels. I think Bobbi Jo probably hit me the hardest because she does have a daughter she can't see grow up, or be there for her. She was young. And of all the people we've lost over the past few days, I was closer to her. She knew she was running out of time, but just like Don, she was always smiling for the camera. I guess that's what we do. She knew her last treatment was a hail mary, but she did not want to leave her little girl.<br />
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Losing these 3 greats has further pushed me into a slump. It's selfish for me to want them here, they are finally free and Kelly Shannon now has more friends with her. I just feel like it's so unfair that we were given this life. Not just me, all of us. I know, life isn't fair.<br />
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The hardest part of this disease, as someone who has it, is the survivors guilt. You begin to think "why not take me?" Well, to those of us who remain, God has us here for a reason. I don't know what that purpose is, but I'm so tired and I really miss them.<br />
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I haven't been writing much. That's how you know I'm not well emotionally and just writing this has already tired me out. I feel like everything is coming to an end. This world keeps changing, it forgot to stop for us who needed it to. It will never stop, and we have to learn to roll with the punches.<br />
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I know Satan is trying to have me turn my back on God because of the loss of these 3. And although I'm an emotional wreck, I'm not mad at God. They fulfilled their purpose and have been rewarded because now they get to go home. As Robert Frost says, "I have miles to go be fore I sleep". He couldn't be more correct. We are no longer being snuffed out before we can make a change. So just give me some time to get myself together, because we are going to make changes for Jennifer, Don, and Bobbi Jo. And all the ones we've lost before. Kelly, you are still my soul sister and I'm a little jealous of the new company you have.<br />
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None of us are getting out of this alive. No one. It's the time between birth and death that we need to use to make a difference. Remember, you never see a U-Haul following a hearse. We all come in the same way and leave this world the same way.<br />
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All of these deaths have also smacked me in the face and made me realize how precious life is. Each of these people knew that. They soaked it up and spread it around. They were all leaders, the greats. They were people we should all look at as examples of how to live our lives full of love and grace. As of now, I'm scared for my own mortality.<br />
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Thank you for your continuous prayers and please include peace for these families and friends. I'm sorry if there are any grammatical errors. It has taken all I have today to write this. Sometimes it's okay if the only thing you do in a day is breathe. Please send prayers, not only for these families and friends, but for the entire lung cancer community who suffered this huge blow. It's getting harder every time to pull out of these slumps. Yes, I'm thankful to still be here, but selfish me just want my friends back. Dear Lord, please hold all of my friends close and give everyone reading this peace and comfort beyond our understanding. Amen. Rest in Paradise friends, until I see you guys again. I'm not sure how I'm going to be okay at the summit this year. Too many lost over the years, it's getting too hard. If any of you need to talk, please message me. I know how alone things like this can make you feel. I'll be here for you. God Bless.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-41728486673597977232019-12-24T13:17:00.003-05:002019-12-24T13:21:18.306-05:00Christmas Eve - Many UpdatesSo, I haven't updated in a while so here it goes. After I had another MRI earlier this month, it was discovered that I did not have brain METs, which is wonderful news.<br />
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However, recently I've had two vascular strokes so am going to acquire another specialist for this (honestly have no idea how many I have now).<br />
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One of the strokes left a lot of pain in my right foot on the bottom. I've been doing physical therapy for it, so it's getting better. I once thought this lung cancer would be the only thing to take me out. Now I'm having other issues, like strokes, so maybe it won't be lung cancer.<br />
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I went for my most recent petscan earlier this month. I have 2 lymph nodes that lit up, my cervix lit up as did one of my ovaries. So, since I have had cervical cancer before, I'm going to return to my OB-GYN and probably another new specialist. If it is in fact cancer, I'm pushing for a full hysterectomy. This would not be metastasis from the lung. It would be a separate cancer altogether.<br />
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As far as my lymph nodes, we are watching those since they are near the area I had radiation over the summer.<br />
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So, that's my plan. Waiting. It's always fun to play this waiting game (insert sarcasm here). I will see my OB-GYN after the 1st of the year and will keep you guys updated.<br />
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I'm not worried. I know all of this is beyond my control and I am still happy with the petscan outcome. I'm blessed to have surpassed 7 years on 11/27 when I was originally thought to live 12-18 months.<br />
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I'm so thankful for your continuous prayers and I'm so excited I got to celebrate my 40th birthday with my sister and favorite friends. I never thought I would make it to 40. I know I'm blessed. I'm praising God for my life.<br />
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I hope you all have a Merry Christmas. Remember, Jesus is the reason for the season. Pic Overload Ahead.....<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-2996479352086873502019-10-27T18:50:00.002-04:002019-10-27T18:50:42.026-04:00Cancer or what?So, this isn't going to be a long post. I just wanted to give you guys an update all at once and will keep you updated. Plus, I need to work on moving this right hand. This is why...<br />
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Friday morning, at approximately, 11 a.m., I bent over to pick up a pillow the dog knocked onto the floor. I wasn't looking, as I've been picking up things for as long as I can remember.... Suddenly, my right hand was so cold. I looked down and it was somewhat curled in and not moving. I stood up straight and realized I had no feeling or control of my right elbow down. Happy Halloween! Something had finally scared me...<br />
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I was by myself and not thinking correctly. I tried to swipe open my phone with my right hand but couldn't get it to open. I'm not sure why I didn't think to lay my phone down with my left hand to facilitate it. I think I was terrified to even put it down. Siri came in handy, she called 911 for me. I never use her. But she worked great!<br />
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The paramedic was looking for someone much older. I explained it was me. We checked my vitals and all was well. They suggested I leave with them for the hospital though. I was brought in as a possible stroke. The right side of my face wasn't smiling all of the way either. <br />
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They ran every test I could think of. Then, they came in and told me they were admitting me. I had to wait until the next day before speaking with the neurosurgeon on call. We aren't sure what it is. <br />
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My CT Scan and MRI both showed an area of concern in the left front part of my brain. After discussing with neuro and my oncologist, it was decided that I go back to Atlanta and consult with neurology there since most of my films are there. This area is no where close to my craniotomy sight. So, we aren't sure if it was a stroke, TIA, or the cancer has spread again to the brain. My official diagnosis was Mets to the brain.<br />
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My mom and I are leaving for Atlanta tomorrow. I wanted to go out to eat with Karley before my birthday, but God has other plans, which probably involve the hospital. Yay for 40! <br />
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Thank you all for your continuous prayers. Karley, if you come across this, know that I love you so very much and there is nothing in this world that could stop me from loving you and I know you feel the same way about me. Even through this teenage phase. I know that you're scared and try to put on a brave face. I couldn't me more proud to be your mom. I'm so sorry I don't tell you enough.<br />
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Anyways, I'll update later this week....hopefully we can get some answers. This was a huge reminder of how we never know when our time could be up. So, hug your loved ones and hold them tight. Don't go to bed mad. Don't even leave your loved ones mad. You never know what could happen.<br />
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Love you all and thanks for letting me practice my typing. I'm a little slow...but it's coming back. I know I have to turn it over to God, it's more than I can handle, so that's what I'm doing. Update soon.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-22067676634979238532019-09-28T15:16:00.000-04:002019-09-28T15:16:05.091-04:00Results of the Cautiously OptimisticI went in for my results yesterday. As with the other radiation I've had to my lung, it's very cloudy and sometimes we aren't able to fully tell anything for months to a year. We are going to try to keep me on petscans so we can find anything growing, but you know insurance companies...<br />
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So, nothing lit up on my new pet scan, which is nothing short of the work of God! I feel so blessed that he continues to lead my oncologist into making the right decisions for me. So, what does this mean? It means they found no active cancer! I say cautiously optimistic because the cloud is there, but I'll take that win!<br />
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We've started joking around that my father and I have cockroach DNA. I know, sounds supergross, but we get knocked down and get back up and keep on going. I'm not sure how many lives we are on now. So, cockroach DNA for the win this time!<br />
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I do give it all to God There is a reason I'm still here as well as my wonderful parents. I trust in his reasoning wholeheartedly. I may have had a few anxiety attacks...but I have kept the faith. <br />
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When I was packing, one of Karley's cats had his own anxiety attack and ran away. He was gone for two days and the worrying about that along with scans was making me nuts. But early, the morning of my scan results, my dear friend Jennifer called to let me know he came home. I was overjoyed, and it was then, I knew it would be a good day. Pics below, the orange one was missing and his sister was either trying to scare him from coming back or waiting on him. I'm not sure.<br />
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My next scan will be in December. At that point I will have surpassed 7 years on my first line treatment of tarceva. We've had some bumps in the road but have been coming out on top each time. I ask you all to continue to pray that I keep going, especially for my daughter. Statistics are still not good and I continue to surpass them.<br />
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Please pray for my four friends from Jonesboro High School who also have cancer, we started our own group chat. <br />
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I met Angela Miller for lunch. Let me just say you are in for a real treat if you try holding a conversation with either of us. We forget words, get confused on topics of discussion, forget in an instant what we are saying. It did make me laugh longer than I have in a while though. I hate she's going through this too but I't makes me feel a little better that I'm not a mess by myself. Please pray for her, she has 3 little ones she loves so much. I know how hard it is to have your world turn upside down. Its devastating. <br />
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My dearest friend in St. Simons recently got diagnosed with breast cancer. Honestly....it's not contagious! I swear I'm not giving it to people! <br />
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As for now, I will live these 3 months and put cancer in the back of my mind once again. Between it's return and then pneumonia, I haven't felt well since probably April. I'm now breathing better and so glad we recognized the pneumonia. I may be still tired from that...but I will so be back to the silliness that makes me whole very soon.<br />
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I love you all and cannot thank you enough for all the well wishes and prayers that you guys sent for me. I'm always here for you if you need anything. God bless you all. And here are a few pics below. Please enjoy the ones I stole from my daughters Instagram page! Homecoming 2019! Oh, and one more from NYC with the world trade center in the back....<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-25224639806965232442019-09-23T04:14:00.004-04:002019-09-23T04:14:54.430-04:00I Thought I was BackSince the end of July, I have been so sickly. I was tired all the time and it took all I could to do anything. I wasn't able to help my old boss much in August, I kept getting worse to the point I was exhibit A below most of the time.<br />
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We went to a Peer Medical Event in NYC promoting Lung Force. Both are amazing groups, and if you haven't signed up for peer medical and are egfr, it's still in the trial stages but is an amazing gift to us. Email me if you're interested and I'll pass along your info. It's a great source for finding people like yourself and comparing and discussing treatments, anonymously of course unless you send a request and the other person accepts.<br />
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While there, I spent most of my time sleeping. We had a mandatory evacuation for the recent hurricane so changed our flight to go out of atlanta. I made the trip up with my daughter. We went to NYC and that's when I started to realize it was something more than just fatigue.<br />
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After getting home I spent a week at my mother's. I was so sick, my immune system shot from radiation. Josh took Karley home for me and I stayed. Luckily my friend Jennifer didn't mind watching my carsick dog and my dad our to old cats. <br />
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After about a week I knew I had to go home, I missed my baby so much. John and Meghann were great keeping her and getting her ready for home coming. After about a week of being home, I finally rolled myself out of bed, put on shoes, and went to the doctor. I had only been out of the house a handful of times since July. I was (and still am) getting so confused over following directions and remembering things. I would like to say it's my age, but these are simple words I can't come up with. I know it drives my friends crazy. Please be patient with me. I forget everything.<br />
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After doing a chest x-ray and sputnum test, I discovered I had radiation induced pneumonia. All those months I was sleeping. I shouldn't have been so hard headed and gone. This type of pneumonia, like others, can kill you if you don't eventually do something about it.<br />
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So, I'm finishing the last of my medication and starting to feel so much better. I feel like the last 3 months have been a blur. I guess too much sleep? And my lack of being able to remember anything has led to a severe decline in the writing I do on the side for extra money.<br />
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Anyway, It's scan week and an as usual, I'm a little worried of something lighting up. Maybe a little more worried than normal since these are the first scans since my cancer returned. I'm back to PetScans for now to look for active cancer. I don't mind them, but I do mind the sleepless nights ahead. I will know on Friday if it worked hopefully. Sometimes it's hard to tell.<br />
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I'm just so tired of being tired. Your prayers have kept me going past the average survival rate, so please don't give up on me. I get knocked down, but I've always gotten back up.<br />
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During all of this, I lost a dear friend, Terry Karlstad. It's been pretty devastating. His wife, Sorina, has been such an angel on earth and I'm praying for her and all of Terry's family. I remember when he began messaging me that it came back and it had been 18 years of dealing with it. He was tired. We tried to have lunch together but he was in the hospital so I had lunch there with the idea we would go somewhere when he got out. He never got well enough. His death really hurt, not just me, but the entire lung cancer community as well. I miss this man who always reminded me he loved me and always called me Kiddo. When he wanted off social media, he would go silent but he told me he was tired. I know he had to be. We go through so much, sometimes it's just too much. That man held on for so long. I know he's in a better place, I just miss the hell out of him.<br />
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Well, in other news, Karley had her first homecoming and got to play for the varsity team in volleyball. She's growing up so fast, I don't want to miss a minute but feel like I've been very boring lately. I'll add some pics below.<br />
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But as of now, please pray these scans go well. I want to see my baby girl graduate high school and college and get married and have children. I know it's a reach, but I'm reaching hard.<br />
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Also, please pray for my friends Angela and Chris, both recently diagnosed with separate cancers as well. We all went to school together. I feel like that place is cursed.<br />
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Anyway, I'll let you guys know about the scan results Friday. I need as many prayers as possible. Love you all and I'm so sorry it's taken so long to update. God bless you guys. And sorry for any grammatical errors, hoping this confusion and loss of words goes away soon.<br />
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Karley's First Varsity Game (courtesy of the Brunswick News)</div>
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Karley's First Homecoming (courtesy of John and Meghann)</div>
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I can't believe we've come so far. She was in 2nd grade when I was diagnosed. Now she's a freshman in high school. And I couldn't be more proud of this girl, the best thing I ever did.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-49057162475731080272019-08-02T15:47:00.002-04:002019-08-02T15:47:47.334-04:00I'm BackIt's been about a month and a half since I got the news about my recurrence. We radiated and it took a while to eat normal food again. I've been very blessed to have some wonderful friends and family to help take care of me. <br />
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I've mainly been resting since returning as I'm still getting fatigue and occasional nausea and vomiting out of no where. But being back in my own bed, in my own home, has really taken some stress off. <br />
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I got out and went to Karley's first high school scrimmage game against Camden County. I'm so proud of the young lady she has become and am terrified at the fact that I only have 4 more years left until she goes to college. <br />
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So, since I've been here, Jennifer and Norma Jean have come to visit. Binge watching Lucifer has been our thing. Now I've gotten Josh into it. I must say, it is nothing like I expected by the name. <br />
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They've cooked me food and just been lazy with me. Which I so desperately needed. Karley stayed with me my first week back. She was such a help when all I wanted to do was sleep. Her dad bought her some dinner items she could fix on her own and she did so much for me and didn't argue at all. Pretty great for a 14 year old!<br />
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I'm so happy we were able to catch this nodule and radiate although I won't know how well it worked for a few months. I haven't developed any other mutations at this time though, so still on tarceva.<br />
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It was also the first anniversary of my soul sister Kelly Shannon leaving us to be in her eternal home. She is loved by so many, I miss her so much but know we will be together again one day.<br />
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I just want to thank you all so very much for prayers for my friends and me. Heaven did gain an angel friend this past week. Rest in Paradise Samantha Valis. It's been amazing to see so many give to her very young son. She was only 29. This cancer is a beast, a mountain lion. Just praying we all can keep climbing that mountain. <br />
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God bless you all and thank you Lord for this additional time here.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-54945465996142107842019-07-09T04:08:00.001-04:002019-07-09T04:16:34.813-04:00A Different RadiationAs most of you know, my cancer returned. It's located right next to the heart and a major artery near the heart. Therefore, a biopsy wasn't possible.<br />
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It was decided I needed Stereotactic Body Radiation Therapy (SBRT). I've had this treatment before but it was in my lower lobe. Now, it's in my upper lobe. There is a world of difference when it comes to these two areas.<br />
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I can't totally remember what it felt like back then, but I can tell you about now.<br />
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My fatigue is out of control. I went to bed around 4 pm yesterday and just had to use the restroom so thought I would catch everyone up.<br />
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So, my main concerns are the scratchiness I feel around my esophagus. I can't seem to clear my throat and I'm afraid to try to hard since it's such a delicate area. I'm finding comfort in warm soup and cold drinks. My energy is so bad, I don't even feel like chewing. But, at least I have an appetite so there's a silver lining.<br />
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Another side effect (or maybe it's just there again) are migraines. Sometimes these headaches are unbearable. I have pain medication but am having to ration it. It would be such a crime for me to get addicted to pain killer since I literally have a cancer that is trying to kill me. I mean really, give a girl a break and at least ease the pain.<br />
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I'm also having difficulty swallowing, nausea, and increased coughing. I've also noticed my lung capacity isn't what it used to be. And the very best part is the headaches. Nothing says "you keep getting run over by the same dump truck" like these damn headaches.<br />
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I quit reading the side effects when they began describing "fatal bleeding". Sometimes you just have to live in the "ignorance is bliss" state of mind and let God do the rest.<br />
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In other news, I was nominate for a few WEGO awards. Two of them were nominations by someone else. I, however, nominated myself for most hilarious patient, which is typical me and SO vain. I may not be, but I think I have a shot. I do have some stiff competition in the lung cancer world, with people like Terry Karlstad and Cliff Norton. And Sharon girl, you totally get me.<br />
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In all honesty, I wouldn't be here if it weren't for God, Karley, and the ability to still laugh, even in the most dire of situations. Some call it morbid, I call it reality with a twist. I'm not going to let this cancer take away my sense of humor. It takes so much as it is, I have some control over what it doesn't take.<br />
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In other news, my baby left and hopefully I will be reunited with her next weekend. She was so sweet while here. She would lay down and we would fall asleep together watching movies. I miss her so much already and know she has to be worried about her "ma". No idea where that child gets some of these things.<br />
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Anyway, I'm about to go back to sleep. I haven't been up for company lately. I would just fall asleep. I'm not sure how long these side effects will last but I've had a few people offer to bring food when I get home. Don't get me wrong, I'm a very prideful person, but sometimes it's okay to let people help you. It makes them feel like they are helping and you feel less stressed. There are angels here among us. And if anyone wants to bring food until I can be myself again beginning next week in St Simons, your offer will not be declined in the least!<br />
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I can probably make a schedule or something when I'm not so tired. I'll have to hand it to you radiation, you are kicking my ass this time. Last time was so much easier. I'm afraid I'll break something internally if I cough to hard.<br />
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Ok, enough rambling. Here is the link to the WEGO site where I have the nominations from two amazing people, well 3 amazing people if we count my own nomination. Probably don't deserve it right now because I'm miserable...but I did when I nominated myself for it. Anywho, here is the link if you want to vote for me. I think I get to go on a trip. There are also ways to contact me on there if you need anything. I never mind helping people as much as possible.<br />
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<a href="https://awards.wegohealth.com/nominees/18275" target="_blank">Samantha's WEGO Nominations</a><br />
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Thank you for your relentless prayers and please continue praying for me and so many of my lung cancer friends right now, Erin, Linnea and Terry especially. It feels like a lot of long term survivors have hit a patch and are really skating on thin ice. I discuss my future with my oncologist on Wednesday after radiation. I will let you all know what's going on.<br />
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Thank you all for your support and God Bless you all. Here are a few pics for this post. I'm really digging my hair...and my sweet sleeping angel. And almost forgot, we went on a safari before I started treatment. Thank you Brad and Mandy for taking us. We had so much fun! Lots of pics and videos on my personal page.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-85452645954712345842019-06-25T08:30:00.002-04:002019-06-25T08:30:14.038-04:00Blood Biopsy ResultsSo, the results came in and I have no additional mutations. I'm still just EGFR. Therefore, after radiation, I will continue the course with tarceva. <br />
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I'm meeting with my oncologist in two weeks to work on a future scan schedule and praying like crazy this spot was part of the original tumor that escaped and was just now detectable. <br />
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Also praying for this radiation to go well. It's in the same lung I had it done last time. I'm praying that lung can withstand all of this and all goes well since there is a major artery too close to biopsy the spot itself.<br />
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Prayers appreciated and thank you all for continuing to fight this journey with me. I'll be getting the body cast made tomorrow and officially start my first round 7/1. My independence day celebration is going to involve a lot of sleep!<br />
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Love you all and God Bless!<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-85330692858338463882019-06-18T13:41:00.001-04:002019-06-18T18:03:25.088-04:00Plan ASo, I got the results of my Petscan an MRI back. They both showed no additional active cancer. So, the problem has resulted in what to do with this new area that can't be reached.<br />
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After consulting the cardio thoracic surgeon, the plan was made to just radiate that one area since it is the drainage area and could have been there all along, just too small to pick up. We will get the results of the blood biopsy on the 26th. If it shows no mutation, I'll have the radiation and stay on tarceva.<br />
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The radiation will be 5 rounds to the upper portion of my lung. Next Wed., June 26th, I'll have my initial appointment and after that I'll have 3 rounds one week and 2 rounds another hopefully. This will put me home mid-July which really sucks.<br />
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I love being with family but I miss Karley and my own bed and just my life. So, there are a lot of logistics to work out. I'll keep you all updated.<br />
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Thank you all for your continuous prayers and God Bless.<br />
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<br />Keeping the Faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02295668224075405565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7513289084050078659.post-78547014146377521242019-06-14T13:41:00.002-04:002019-06-14T13:41:44.004-04:00All Good Things Eventually EndWell, it's been a fabulous run on tarceva. 6 1/2 years in fact. Unfortunately the time has come to move on. I just finished my appointment which showed progression in my lung that's hard to reach for a biopsy.<br />
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So, I'll be in Atlanta a little longer than anticipated. I have a petscan and MRI scheduled for Monday to be sure there is no additional metastatic disease throughout. My oncologist has a team that will discuss my case after these additional tests and determine where we go from here. We are thinking tagrisso but are unsure for now.<br />
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I've been blessed to be progression free for so long. But we all know this disease is relentless and the reality is, it will not stop. I'm thankful to know so many advocates and physicians that I can get opinions from. You guys know who you are. <br />
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I know my family and friends are worried. All I can say is that we cannot control our destiny. It's in God's hands. He has always given me signs, so I wasn't that surprised going in today. I feel Nicole and Kelly were surrounding me with their love and comfort and God allowed that as a sort of warning. They both did show up in my facebook memories this week.<br />
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But, whatever happens from here, I do feel confident that God will lead the doctors in the right direction and we come up with a good plan. I'm praying it hasn't spread as well. <br />
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So, for now, I'll have more tests Monday and will keep you all updated now that things are different. I miss my Karley so much and will be so happy when I get to go back home. God bless you all and thank you for your continuous prayers.<br />
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