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Sunday, October 27, 2019

Cancer or what?

So, this isn't going to be a long post.  I just wanted to give you guys an update all at once and will keep you updated.   Plus, I need to work on moving this right hand.  This is why...

Friday morning, at approximately, 11 a.m., I bent over to pick up a pillow the dog knocked onto the floor.  I wasn't looking, as I've been picking up things for as long as I can remember....  Suddenly, my right hand was so cold.   I looked down and it was somewhat curled in and not moving.  I stood up straight and realized I had no feeling or control of my right elbow down.  Happy Halloween!  Something had finally scared me...

I was by myself and not thinking correctly.  I tried to swipe open my phone with my right hand but couldn't get it to open.  I'm not sure why I didn't think to lay my phone down with my left hand to facilitate it.  I think I was terrified to even put it down.  Siri came in handy, she called 911 for me.  I never use her.  But she worked great!

The paramedic was looking for someone much older.  I explained it was me.  We checked my vitals and all was well.  They suggested I leave with them for the hospital though.  I was brought in as a possible stroke.  The right side of my face wasn't smiling all of the way either. 

They ran every test I could think of.  Then, they came in and told me they were admitting me.  I had to wait until the next day before speaking with the neurosurgeon on call.  We aren't sure what it is. 

My CT Scan and MRI both showed an area of concern in the left front part of my brain.  After discussing with neuro and my oncologist, it was decided that I go back to Atlanta and consult with neurology there since most of my films are there.  This area is no where close to my craniotomy sight.  So, we aren't sure if it was a stroke, TIA, or the cancer has spread again to the brain.  My official diagnosis was Mets to the brain.

My mom and I are leaving for Atlanta tomorrow.  I wanted to go out to eat with Karley before my birthday, but God has other plans, which probably involve the hospital.  Yay for 40! 

Thank you all for your continuous prayers.  Karley, if you come across this, know that I love you so very much and there is nothing in this world that could stop me from loving you and I know you feel the same way about me.  Even through this teenage phase.  I know that you're scared and try to put on a brave face.  I couldn't me more proud to be your mom.  I'm so sorry I don't tell you enough.

Anyways, I'll update later this week....hopefully we can get some answers.  This was a huge reminder of how we never know when our time could be up.  So, hug your loved ones and hold them tight.  Don't go to bed mad.  Don't even leave your loved ones mad.  You never know what could happen.

Love you all and thanks for letting me practice my typing.  I'm a little slow...but it's coming back.  I know I have to turn it over to God, it's more than I can handle, so that's what I'm doing.  Update soon.

Got my smile back before leaving the hospital!





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