No one really deserves that. And the worst part, it was part of our lung cancer family. Janet Freeman-Daily was totally right when she spoke about kindness to me. Sometimes I do get hot-headed. I have definitely calmed down in this aspect for the most part, but I felt my other lung cancer friends were being attacked so a snapped. It's no excuse for what I did, but it's why I did it.
I have apologized to the individual and as free will is, they can choose to forgive or not. But, as part of this family that is so much larger than me, I wouldn't do anything to hurt it. And I hate that I hurt someone. I do think it was a misunderstanding somehow, but I've never taken my business to facebook and I was reminded by those much wiser than me that it reflects poorly upon me and the kind of person I want to be.
Church is important to me, and I've been straying. Straying is definitely not good because it lets Satan get in places of my mind where he doesn't belong.
To those who made me realize it's not worth getting bent out of shape for, thank you. To the person I offended, I apologize and I hope you understand why I said what I said. To the one who decided to call me names and let me know people just feel sorry for me, I will be praying for you. Because the way I acted is not who I am.
I try to bring comedy into this super hard world we are living in. Some people like it, some don't. But bringing one person to Christ would make my life worth it. I failed so many people the other day when I made the comments I made. So not only did I apologize to her, I'm apologizing to any of you who read it. Pieces of the old me came out and it was not cool at all.
Kindness is what we all need. I feel especially crabby today because my headache returned and the oils and pain meds are not helping. And I know, if you're anything like me, pain can make you a raging bull. So, anyone I've been snippy with, I do apologize.
And please, no one "Feel Sorry" for me. I'm in no need of pity. We lost a great person this week and so I wanted to ask you all to please pray for her family and friends. She was a rockstar in the lung cancer community who wanted to be loved, married, and have children. She sadly never got that chance.
When I think about the petty circumstances that come up, I have to remember that God has allowed me to live this long for a reason. And that reason is not to be rude to others. So, some of you may think I'm fake or a bitch, and that's okay. I know what's in my heart. And I know my heart wasn't right earlier this week. Sometimes I forget to stop and think about others circumstances.
Just know I'm not the person to hold a grudge. I want us all to get along. I know we can't all be friends, but being amicable is my goal. Thank you for hearing me out and I promise to post something less heavy and maybe even silly later this month. Meanwhile, enjoy these photos from spring break with Karley and her friend. These kids wear me out! They had fun though, so that's what matters.
Finally, thank you Lord for these moments. I know they are now memories, but I'm blessed I get to keep making them. I'm awful for forgetting that. Two weeks ago I wasn't acting like this. Someone was laying on their horn in the starbucks drive thru. I paid for their meal and told the drive thru person to tell them that I hope their day gets better. I try to be that person, we all slip. I slipped. Thank you guys that forgive me. Love you all and God Bless!
These are from our Ghost Tour in Savannah. Love these two, they've been friends since about 3!
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