Some of the "new normal" for me isn't really new, it's just accepting that life will never go back to the old normal. I will have petscans every 3 months until at least 5 years of clear scans, an MRI annually, tarceva every day forever (or until it quits working), can't be out in the sun much, my hair is growing in insanely curly and I actually have to cut my curly eyelashes. My nails are brittle and break very easily. And now, I'm having all sorts of women issues, of which I will spare you the details. And I can't sit/drive longer than 1.5 hours without stopping to walk around to prevent blood clots.
But, my "new normal" also consists of a good quality of life for now. I feel better than I have in years. I can breathe so much better and that gift is allowing me to spend more quality time with Karley. We've been making memories left and right. Without the "new normal", I would still be working way too much. I'm also able to live a semi-normal life unlike so many of my other lung cancer friends who are going through so much. For all of this, I am blessed. My problems are so small in the whole scheme of things so I'm just going to be grateful for what I have now in this life, however long it will be.
We never know when things can change, our whole lives can change in an instant. Make sure you're loved ones know they are loved every day!
Thank you all for your continuos prayers and please keep them coming. They mean more than you realize. And please pray for our dear friend, John Roberts. I met him through Facebook in the lung cancer community. We have the same kind. He's not doing well and he is the most positive person I know. We need to see his "Good Morning Friends!" every morning. That's one of the "new-normals" I love. So please pray for John and his wife Tina right now. God bless you all and I'll update again soon.
Meanwhile, I've got so much living to do...
Proverbs 13:12
Hope makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
GOD is good.
ReplyDeleteYes he is. Thank you!
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