Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Roller coasters

It's been a while since my last post.  I was in a funk for a bit but things have been looking up.  I know I go back and forth, but it's just part of this roller coaster grieving process.

Since my last post, I've seen a counselor regarding Karley's nighttime behavior.  A month or so ago she began waking up and crying and night, sleepwalking too.  She would cry for me and no matter how many times I put her back in her bed she would not remain there.  I eventually gave in and let her sleep with me.  This continued until now, she just routinely sleeps with me.  The counselor let me know this was okay, and maybe she was feeling some abandonment issues due to my recent bout with depression and distance.

Wow, what a wake up call!   It made sense.  She will not sleep unless she is somehow touching me.  I don't want her to feel abandoned or "leave her before I leave her".  She is the most important thing on this earth to me and I felt so guilty for making her feel this way.  Since this meeting, I've been slowly but surely enjoying every moment with her more.  I love her more than words can say.

My best friend, Amanda, along with her children, Ashleigh and Connor, came down to visit this past weekend.  We had a blast!  Although Ashleigh is old enough to watch Karley and Connor, I wanted to be at home with the kids instead of going out.  I love Amanda for being such a great friend, so honest and blunt with me.  We did have one girl's night out, but it wasn't a late one.  It rained a lot, but it didn't ruin our good time.  We even made a trip to Jacksonville for some laser tag.  I've attached a few pictures from the weekend.

I'm so blessed to have this time with my sweet angel and wonderful friends.  I haven't laughed so hard in a long time.  Life is so precious and we take so much for granted.

On another note, my family and friends are participating in the Free to Breathe Atlanta 5k on August 17th in the Vinings area.  If you would like to join us, here is the link to our team page http://participate.freetobreathe.org/goto/Team_Clayco

Thank you all for your continuous prayers and support!  Please continue to pray for Reggie, Tim, Marjorie, and Gretchen!

Miracles happen.

My favorite verse:
Matthew 19:26 NIV
Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."

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