My sweet angel

My sweet angel

Monday, September 16, 2013

Scanxiety

The week is finally here.  I'm going to have another PetScan Friday to see how the Tarceva is working.  I usually don't get that nervous before them, but I've had some shoulder and neck pain lately.  Although it's probably unrelated, once you have cancer, every time you have pain somewhere, you think it's related.

Last night I had a pretty emotional night.  Lately it's been about everyone else.  But last night, it was about me.  I literally dropped to my knees and begged God to have mercy on me and let everything be okay.  I cried for hours.  I haven't cried like that in a long time.  For some reason, it all became overwhelming after putting Karley to bed.  I thought about everything I may miss in her life.  I begged God to stay, to be able to be here for her.

I believe in miracles, and I definitely need one.  I know so many people going through tough times right now that need one too.  Please continue to remember the following additional people in your prayers:   Marjorie Polk,Tim Gravitt, Shelley Miller, Sheila Hodges, Peggy Fogerty, Gretchen Mitchell Anderson, Dylan Rosier and James Robert Smith.  They still all have their own battles.

Please pray for strength and peace for Marjorie and her family right now.  She is having a fundraiser October 5th.  Please see Marjorie's Fundraiser to find out more information.

Reggie still has an active fundraiser to help pay his medical bills, especially now with his additional medical expenses.  It's at Reggie's Fundraiser.  Reggie needs our help now even more now!

Thank you all for your continued support and prayers.  My faith in the power of our Lord is still strong, even if I have a bit of scanxiety.  None of us are alone, we are all in this together with Him.  The following verse gives me encouragement and peace, even when my world seems turned upside down.

John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you.  Not as the world gives do I give to you.  Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid"

1 comment:

  1. I wanted to start this by saying you are the strongest woman I know. If you continue to keep you faith in God, he will never let you down. I know it is a hard thing to rember (that god will never put more on you than he knows you can handle). It is a true privlage to be able to say You are a true friend. And I love you for that. If you ever need some one to talk to I will always be hear for you.

    P.S.
    Thank you so much for thinking about me, and my fight. You don't know how much that means to me.

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